this is how you know i want you.

by AVA.

some people are so deep you fall into them and you never stop falling.

i may have given you too much importance, but this is how you know i want you.

you tasted like christmas morning high on cocaine.

i question everything and that is why i'm still alone.

i swear i knew your voice before i ever even heard it. you sounded like home.

i wanted you to make me feel again.

i fell hard. you fell fast. we knew of no other way to fall.

you are the fresh scar upon my heart, the new slit where love finds its way through.

in this very large house is a very large room with a very large space between you and me.

space is important to me, but not here. not now. not between you and me.

my insecurities are getting the best of me and i want to give my best to you. but sometimes i am too much in my own mind. i make up something. i push you away. and i hope you don't change your mind.

i want to give you all of me, but i'm scared you want more than what i have to give.

i tend to destroy things i'm afraid of. i tend to destroy things that i love. things i don't believe i’m deserving enough. i am broken and i hope you can understand.

when you touch me, it is both heavy and light.

and if you feel me like i feel you, you would question everything and nothing and still, somehow, be at peace.

i expected nothing and you became everything and this is hard for me to understand. i have never really felt this way and i can't really explain how i feel, i just feel like for the first time ever, everything here is enough.

how can someone's laugh be so lovely and different every single time?

i tell you as long as i am enough for you, i'll be okay.

there is a comfort in you i’ve never known. when i am with you, i am at rest.

i just want to be near you. to love you. to be with you, as much as you will allow.

i wasn't really living before you, but i can't wait to wake up now. i can’t wait to start the day and open my eyes and see you.

i need something to do to keep my mind off of you. what else could i find here that i will love enough to ruin me?

i wanted to destroy you. you are mine to ruin. something so beautiful should only exist for me.

i miss you. i am homesick for you and this is new for me.

i love how it feels to be with you, like you fit into me and i fit into you. i love how easily i fall asleep when i'm with you.

go to sleep. dream of me.