this is how you know i want you.

by AVA.

you came in slowly like the fog and consumed me.

i don't remember much from last night aside from your eyes and how they never left mine.

i fill up with questions. i always think the worst. did i text back too soon? am i too much? everything is fragile. distance, too delicate. ridiculous— how timing can ruin everything. how much is too close before i'm smothering you? how much is too far before you forget i exist? i question everything and that is why i'm still alone.

i just wanted you to sink your hands into me and turn on everything i turned off feeling for the world. i wanted you to make me feel again.

do not speak to me in the language we both know. i want to feel your native tongue and where it came from. i want to know where you begin.

i want to give you all of me, but i'm scared you want more than what i have to give.

i'm sorry. i don't really know how to be with another person. this is all so new to me. i tend to destroy things i'm afraid of. i tend to destroy things that i love. things i don't believe i’m deserving enough. i am broken and i hope you can understand.

that is so me dang