Black Swan Affair

by K.L. Kreig

Some things happen simply because they happen. And in the end knowing why doesn’t change a damn thing anyway. The damage is already done.

“When life hands you lemons, you don’t make lemonade. That’s for pantywaisters. No. You pucker up, suck them dry, then throw the used rinds back in life’s face with a giant fuck-you and a gesture for more.”

I will always come back to her. I will always be drawn to her.

Delaying pain doesn’t make it better. It just keeps you balanced on a knife’s edge, the razor sharp tip digging in farther with each new breath you breathe. Either way, the end result is the same. You’re sliced in two. One is just a slower process than the other.

“I know it’s soon, Swan. But at the same time, it isn’t. I’ve been by your side our entire lives. No one knows you better than me. You breathe, so do I. You hurt, I ache. When you smile…fuck, Mavs, it’s hard to see through the stars blinding me. Every time you laugh, I fall a little more in love with you, if that’s possible. I want to be with you until we’re gray and wrinkled and don’t give a shit if what we say offends people. No one will love you like I do, Swan. Your soul belongs to me. Everything you need is here, staring right at you. If you’re not ready, I understand. But know that I’ll be waiting. I’ll wait as long as it takes. As long as you need. But if you are…then put me out of my misery and be my wife. I promise you won’t regret a single second of our life together.”

“I don’t care if they know what we’re doing, but I don’t want them to hear it. The sound of you coming undone belongs to me. Only me.”

“Be a good girl and you can get me to do anything for you.”

“I would renew my vows with you every single day for the rest of my life if that’s what you wanted. My life has always been pledged to you.”

She’s so damn beautiful it’s like descending into your own personal madness because you know you can’t have her.

I know everything and I still don’t care. That’s how much I love you. That’s how wound around the very fucking center of my soul you are. It’s the same place you’ll be until I close my eyes and take my last breath. You are rooted in here”—he pounds his chest—“in the bowels of me so far I will never be rid of you. No matter how much I’ve tried.

“While he was the sun that lit your world, you were the darkness that shadowed mine.”

“Why anything? Why are you here with me? Why do you want me? Why did you marry me?” Please explain it to me, because I just don’t get it. I don’t deserve it. I never have. He simply shakes his head as if I’m the densest person on the planet. “Because I have enough love for the both of us. I always have.”

“I thought Killian’s love defined me, but your love changed me forever. I’m so sorry it took me so long to figure that out.”

“I could stand here and repeat those words—I love you—until I have no voice left, but in the end, they’re just words. What’s far more important are my actions to show you that every single moment of every single day you’re my everything. My sun and moon. My light and darkness. My one true love. I’ll make sure you never regret choosing me, Swan.”