Black Swan Affair

by K.L. Kreig

The Black Swan Theory is a metaphor describing an event that comes as a surprise, results in major impact to the environment or our personal lives, and tends to be rationalized after the fact with the benefit of hindsight.

Some things happen simply because they happen. And in the end knowing why doesn’t change a damn thing anyway. The damage is already done.

I’m anything but innocent. My soul is lost. My heart cold. I’m a devil in angel’s skin, trapping a man for life who could have any woman he wants but for some reason wants me.

Jim, Jack, or Johnny may not solve the world’s problems, but they do a fine fucking job burying the ugly truth for a while.

may be completely out of line saying this, but anyone who marries that woman can’t be worthy of you.”

“When life hands you lemons, you don’t make lemonade. That’s for pantywaisters. No. You pucker up, suck them dry, then throw the used rinds back in life’s face with a giant fuck-you and a gesture for more.”

“It’s the way I’ve imagined you looking at me my entire life, Maverick.”

“I want to kiss these fucking lips, Maverick. And not a kiss of a boy who has been friends with a girl for almost thirty years. But as a lover. I want to bite and suck and own and devour. Whenever I want. However I want.”

“I like to think we all end up in the place we’re supposed to be eventually,” Sheila answers wistfully. “The sum total of our choices carries us to our destiny.”

“Jesus fucking Christ, Maverick! I know everything and I still don’t care. That’s how much I love you. That’s how wound around the very fucking center of my soul you are. It’s the same place you’ll be until I close my eyes and take my last breath. You are rooted in here”—he pounds his chest—“in the bowels of me so far I will never be rid of you. No matter how much I’ve tried. No matter how much I wanted to while I knew you were with him.”

“While he was the sun that lit your world, you were the darkness that shadowed mine.”

“Why anything? Why are you here with me? Why do you want me? Why did you marry me?” Please explain it to me, because I just don’t get it. I don’t deserve it. I never have. He simply shakes his head as if I’m the densest person on the planet. “Because I have enough love for the both of us. I always have.”

“I love you, Kael. There just is no me without you. There never has been,” she whispers against my wet mouth. “I realized that the one person who has always, without fail, been there for me is you. And the thought of not having that—of not having you beside me every day—killed something inside of me.”

“I thought Killian’s love defined me, but your love changed me forever. I’m so sorry it took me so long to figure that out.”