How and Why I Got Castrated

by B. Castrucchio

Although I have already been castrated, I still feel proud that I have gotten it done. I know it makes me special and different. No, I'll never be able to be a real woman, but I have made myself into something different—a eunuch. In a way, I am even more special than biological woman because I had to work so hard to be this way. I even had to have surgery done.

I agree with this reasoning.

There is always a kind of sexual tension between men and woman, and I feel like emasculating myself has freed me of that. If a girl knows I have been castrated, she knows I'm not just trying to get into her pants. The strange thing is, I have always been attracted to girls. But I can tell a girl she looks amazing and she knows that I'm not just trying to flatter her so I can have sex with her. I kind of feel like I'm one of the girls now, actually.

I'm kind of squeamish when it comes to surgery, and I didn't want to do any more than was absolutely necessary. I'm happy with what I have now. And yet, sometimes I still do dream of being a beautiful woman and having it all. I haven't ruled out more surgery completely. Perhaps I'll change my mind when I start to get older and it makes sense to have plastic surgery so I can look younger. It's also possible that medicine will advance in the future to make more things possible. For now, I'm kind of on the fence about it since I'm pretty happy with my life and I don't want to do anything too drastic. But if I could, if my boyfriend really wanted it, if I had the money to pay for it, I might just go ahead and go for a complete sexual reassignment.

Really though, I have no regrets. I always knew I wanted to have my balls removed and I'm very satisfied with my life now. I know I couldn't have been happy without the procedure. If we're really going to get into hypotheticals, I would say I regret that I hadn't gotten castrated earlier, preferably before I went through puberty and my body developed under the influence of testosterone. If I could make the choice for myself today before I was born, I would have definitely preferred to be born as a girl. My personality is more feminine, and I genuinely like pretending to be a girl when I can by cross-dressing. It kind of sucks that I had to go through all this just so that I can feel like myself. I feel like I would have always felt normal as a girl.