Small Ghost

by Trista Mateer

SMALL GHOST GETS CREATIVE she makes things so people know she’s still here she makes things so she knows she’s still here

but it takes an awful lot of work to be nothing sometimes and it just takes a medium amount of work to cry over weird Journey covers

small ghost is so tired she’s so tired she’s so fucking tired the cobwebs in her head feel so heavy, you know? and it’s like when they started spinning themselves it wasn’t such a big deal but now that they’re here???? they’re just so heavy/she’s just so tired/she’s just so/she’s just

she can’t remember why she’s trying to take care of herself

SMALL GHOST DOESN’T ALWAYS HAVE BAD DAYS doesn’t always wake up feeling like she’s six feet under doesn’t always move through life like she’s underwater

sometimes she gets out of bed without forcing herself sometimes she remembers to eat regular meals sometimes she takes her vitamins pays her bills posts on instagram does the laundry sometimes when she takes photos with friends it’s not to prove to her mother that she’s okay it’s just because she wanted to savor a moment