I’m not allowed to have parties. But the judge encouraged me to “keep company” with people he deems a good influence. Namely, the guys from the team. The ones I let down. I don’t even know how to be around people without being trashed anymore. House arrest comes with those fun little piss tests, though, so my using days are behind me. Drugs and booze never offered the oblivion I was looking for anyway. Some demons can’t be escaped.
