you saw straight white couples have in movies. Not the Hollywood sex but the moments afterward, when they cuddled in bed. I never saw that in porn and I’d never had it in my life. I was big and brown and no good at flirting. I sort of blended into the background. No one looked at me unless they were after something rough—quick and dirty and full of regrets to wash off with the memories in the shower the next day. Maybe guys who looked like Sid got cuddles and kisses that actually meant something.
