RoomHate

by Penelope Ward

“Well…she left the other half to a guy named Justin Banks.” “Who is that?” The only person I’ve ever loved.

“We both came from broken homes, but from the moment I met you, my world seemed a little less broken.

“Trying to hate you is exhausting.” “So, stop trying.”

“I never hated you. I couldn’t hate you if I tried. Believe me, I have tried.”

“I did kiss one girl before that night. Wanna know why? Because I didn’t want to be clueless as to what the fuck I was doing when I finally got the courage to kiss you.

“Temptation is natural. That doesn’t mean you should act on it.”

The fact that he was unattainable made it all-consuming.

“This last song goes out to all the people who’ve ever had a certain kind of friend who drives you crazy—the kind that gets under your skin and stays there even when they’re not physically present. The kind with dimples you’ve been dreaming about since you were a kid. The kind with seafoam green eyes you get lost in. The kind that’s confusing as all hell. That kind. If you can relate, this song is for you.”

“You’re not missing much.” “It’s more like I try not to think about what I’m missing.”

Stop falling in love with him again,

“The sunrise is beautiful today, isn’t it?” “Really beautiful,” he agreed, except he wasn’t looking at the sun at all.

I was hoping you’d talk some sense into me, help me realize that I need to accept things the way they are and move on.” “But that’s not really what you want, is it?” No. No, it isn’t.

quickly realized that all of the feelings hadn’t really gone away at all. I’d just been suppressing them.

That’s the difference between us. I would deal with any amount of discomfort that it took in order to have you in my life. I would never choose any option that involved pretending you didn’t exist. I would take any fragment of you than nothing at all.

“Throw it away or throw me away?” “Both.”

“Well, a man doesn’t bark at another man like that about his friend unless he wants her for himself.”

“I’m afraid to be with him and afraid to be without him.”

“The fact that you just squirmed in your seat is proof that you also have an illogical side. Maybe our illogical sides need to meet sometime.”

“No one’s ever compared to you, Amelia. You have to know that.” My heart felt like it was going to combust upon hearing him say that.

It’s always when you want time to stand still that it flies the fastest.

“I’m losing you, and I haven’t even left yet.”

We have to trust that what we’ve been working toward is worth more than all of the crazy shit that life might throw at us

But time is running out. Don’t waste it hiding from me.”

I had to once again remind myself of the old adage of setting someone free, that if they come back they’re yours; if they don’t, they never were.

All that time I spent mad at you…I could have been fucking you. What a dumbass.

I don’t like fighting with you. I love you. In case there was any doubt.

You’ve taught me that love isn’t about words. It’s a series of actions. You’ve shown your love for me in how you look at me, how you treat me and most of all, in how much you love my daughter as your own.”

I never stopped loving you. There may have been times when I tried to hate you, but even then, I never stopped loving you.”

sometimes the thing we fear more than anything, is really what our soul craves the most.

i love this one

It wasn’t hate at all, was it? I should have known. No one acts like that toward someone unless they care too much.”

“There is no music without you. Music is an expression of all of those things you live for…a reflection of the passion within your soul. I live for you. You’re my passion. You’re my music…you and Bea.”