I go through cycles of exercise; good nutritional, nonsugar diets, and then (usually after months of control) I eat a donut or a piece of carrot cake. Usually I do this while traveling. It is then that my loneliness and vulnerability are most exposed. I usually reward myself for all the hard work I’ve done. Once I eat the sweets, the release phase starts. I start obsessing on what I’ve done. I’ve blown it now. I might as well eat some more. I’ll binge just for today and start my control tomorrow. Ah! But tomorrow never comes! The sugar craves sugar. The mental obsessing keeps me thinking about
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