It was right there, in black and white. God ordered His people to commit genocide. The same God who “so loved the world that He sent His only begotten Son” ordered soldiers to kill infants and burn innocent animals so that His chosen people could have their own land. This was not the loving God I knew. This God was terrifying and brutal. How had I missed all this before? The only thing worse was the answer proffered by apologetics: that God had a right to do with His creation as He pleased. To me, that God seemed like a sociopath.
