I had wanted to give my team more authority and control, but my heart wasn’t in it anymore. I would give decision-making control to my people, but they’d make bad decisions. If I was going to get yelled at, I at least wanted it to be my fault. I went back to leading in the way I’d been taught. I personally briefed every event. I approved all decisions myself. I set up systems where reports came to me all day and all night. I never slept well because messengers were waking me so I could make decisions. I was exhausted and miserable; the men in the department weren’t happy either, but they
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