It was a relief to be going to a rehab facility for a positive reason—I had been alcohol and drug free for exactly one year and three months—and the experiential therapy and lecture sessions were really helpful. It all reinforced something I knew intellectually but, especially in my more challenged moments, still couldn’t get past. I was, always, seeking my father’s approval more than self-approval. Because I still didn’t know who I was or which self I approved of.
