I want to be is a good man, and if you ask me what I mean by a good man I would say that the goodness I want to partake of is infinite and that that infiniteness cannot by definition be defined, and that what an individual life has of that goodness is defined only by the whole of that life considered from all possible aspects and that it cannot be defined by the mind of the person living it at any point or points during the course of it, that all attempted word definitions are only the tiniest parts of definitions, but that maybe none of them are on the other hand completely false.
