I didn’t want to go at first, because I thought Jody would notice the change in me, and that anybody with half an eye would see I didn’t have a brain in my head.
A perfect way to describe why many with depression avoid seeing close ones. “The change in me” I liked this line.
Even if the person looks the same or normal to everyone, anyone with depression does not see it that way.  Some, including myself, feel like depression is printed and shown in our face, body language, and facial expressions; to people, I look perfectly fine, and I look like me — to myself, I look like am I a completely different person.

