Sincerely, Carter (Sincerely Yours, #1)

by Whitney G.

“URGENT: Please read this, Ari.” Dear Arizona, I'm not going to bother with “pleasantries” or waste time telling you about what's going on at home with me because it doesn't matter. Not without you being here anyway. So, I'll keep this short and to the point. I didn’t mean one fucking word of what I said to you at the airport. I do love you. I love you ‘in that way’ and it was much more than sex between us. I only wanted to make sure you left and pursued your dreams instead of staying back for me because I’ll always be here for you. Always. If I knew that what I said would make you give me the cold shoulder or stop talking to me, I can promise you that I never would’ve done it and I would take it back in a heartbeat. Not talking to you for a few days was different. Not talking to you for a few weeks was torture. Not talking to you for MONTHS was (and still is) unbearable. You’ve always meant the world to me, but it didn’t hit me just how much more you meant, until you were gone … I go to sleep, reaching for you—wanting to hear your voice before I shut my eyes. I wake up hoping to have you in my arms, and there are only so many days that I’m going to be able to stay sane without you … For years we’ve joked about why I can’t last with anyone else for more than six months, and the answer has been right in front of my face all this time: You. I’m pretty sure it’s been you since fourth grade, because now, more than ever, I know that I’m supposed to be with you, and you’re suppo...

PAINNNNN. ENDLESS PAIN!!! Holy shit, if Ari opened this letter before agreeing to date Sam that night... holy fucking shit