"Professional Christians" such as pastors, missionaries, and parachurch leaders who enter stage 4 often experience what feels like an insurmountable double bind. On the one hand, they yearn to be honest about their spiritual journey - both the profoundly scary questions they are wrestling with as well as their paradoxically deepening insights. On the other hand, they know in their gut that if they begin preaching and teaching these things they may be branded as heretics, losing their credibility and the jobs their families depend upon for income.
