He thus finds himself confronted with a hopeless dilemma: either he overcomes his repugnance to kill, but acts against his conscience, or he does not fire at the enemy, but then feels guilty for abandoning his companions in arms, especially if some of them have not survived.
I imagine that for me my own comrades would have to take priority but it's like asking which aquaintance should die. You would naturally pick someone based on some reasoning but it's not a choice one should have to make.
