All The Things I Never Said

by Mae Krell

he said that in the waves he could hear all the voices of those who had been silenced by the creatures who walked the sand

i hope that one day you’ll forget all the pain you’ve endured and just learn to be happy

And every night I am haunted by the fact that all these memories that mean the world to me you probably don’t even remember and how now I don’t matter to you at all

Goodbye is the hardest word to say because goodbye means leaving and leaving means drifting and drifting means forgetting

You are the kind of mystery that I would love to spend the rest of my life trying to unravel

You don’t really know someone until you’ve talked to them at 3 in the morning

3 in the morning is when words are most sincere and eyelids are slowly sinking. the hour when the most genuine thoughts and opinions come out But when you are alone at 3 in the morning everything you have ever tried to forget comes flooding back at once like a tsunami tide and all your demons collide and all you can hope for is that if you close your eyes it’ll all go away But when it doesn’t what do you do then? some people choose to overdose some to drink or to smoke and some take pills because it would be nice to sleep for a while a coma maybe or a long nap anything to escape. anything to get rid of these thoughts these feelings

but truth is, we all go mad sometimes and that small break into insanity is actually what keeps us sane.

Today is not a good day. And today is not a bad day. Today is a day. And I am completely okay with that.

All the suicidal kids with all their cuts and pills no matter how hard they try they just can’t get it right because they were born to live

And at the moment I first spoke to her, I already knew I would soon spend countless hours attempting to write a poem as beautiful as she is