All The Things I Never Said

by Mae Krell

no one was listening

cared for me more than he did for himself but really, he needed more caring than i did

who seemed to love himself more than he loved anyone else but really he felt like he was the worst so he acted as if he was the best

Did you ever wonder why in animals hip bones collar bones and rib cages being visible are thought of as sickly ugly and sometimes even abusive yet, in humans that is what we call beautiful

you went your way and i went your way too

They always say “you are what you eat” and then they wonder why I don’t eat at all

Even though my heart is dead it still finds a way to beat for you

Suicidal and Cancerous

we

you asked to kiss my scars my answer was no, it'll always be no. not because i'm uncomfortable, or withdrawing from you but because i don't want your perfect lips on my imperfect scars. i want them everywhere else. i want you to acknowledge that i am more than just the pain i have gone through. because, as usual, I just have to add my own stuff.

there was no longer excessive fat on my body instead there was plain skin

I got this idea that it's all okay as long as I'm getting thinner

sometimes I don't know where to go when my only option is somewhere where I don't feel I belong the photos look better without me in them

and no one ever told me the light at the end of the tunnel would be a train.

for someone who's so known for writing I really suck at talking