All The Things I Never Said

by Mae Krell

Definitions What is time? Is it the ticking clock hanging on the wall or is it the way the sun rises and sets on the horizon in summer is it the way a child grows over the course of seasons or is it the hourglass on my table counting the seconds until who knows when So when you said you wanted me to “give you time” i brought you the clock from my wall and i took you to watch the sun rise and set i showed you photos of a child growing and i brought you my hourglass instead of leaving it on my table to count the seconds until forever so now when you say to “give you time” what am i supposed to do? because i would cross oceans to bring you what you want i will do anything for you except leave your side

you needed to be alone i told you that was the one thing i could not do because without you my clock stops ticking and my seasons stop changing and the hourglass sitting on my table stops counting seconds because for me, without you there is no forever

Blinded I loved you but you didn’t love me and sure that was sad but really the worst thing was that even though you knew I loved you you acted like no one did Because your everything was this person who didn’t care about you just like my everything is you and you don’t care about me

Days There are good days, and bad days. Today was not a good day, but honestly, today was not a bad day either. Today was a day. Simply a day, nothing more and nothing less. Maybe tomorrow will be a good day, or maybe it will be a bad day, who knows, and frankly, who cares? Today is today, so why would I spend my time worrying about tomorrow. If anything, I should worry about today. I can worry about tomorrow when it comes. Today is not a good day. And today is not a bad day. Today is a day. And I am completely okay with that.

The Future And I swear, one day, i’ll be someone that I am not and it’ll be even greater than who I am, whoever that is.