He understood how these emotions intrude on the public debate about addicts because even he, after all he has uncovered, couldn’t scour them out of himself. But, he added, “Once I calmed down, shame comes into it, and I want to apologize.” Some days, Ralph was quiet and reflective and recited passages of Goethe’s poetry to Gabor. The next week, he was back to muttering “Heil Hitler.”
