“No. Not this pain. The pain I caused when I left. I had your love and I threw it away, like it was worth nothing when it was worth everything. I broke my own fucking heart and I broke yours. Every day it feels like there’s another crack inside me and no matter how much I ignore it, it’s not fucking healing. It’s not getting better. Steph...baby blue…I’m so fucking sorry. I ruined everything we had.” He closes his eyes and nods to himself. “I deserve this.”
