“I don’t have a map for this. I’m not—Maybe you think I’m swimming in loads of experience here, but I’m not, and you mean too much to me…” He squeezes his eyes shut. “So if you don’t want to wait for me,” he forces his words out, his voice turning to gravel, “or if you need to hook up before I can give you… Don’t tell me, okay? If that’s part of this... Don’t tell me. Keep me in the dark.”
