The early disciples were honest, sincere, zealous men; they had given up everything to follow Jesus; their sense of the heroic was grand, but where did it all end? 'They all forsook Him and fled.' They came to realize that no human earnestness or sincerity on earth can ever begin to fulfill what Jesus demands of a disciple. Then after the Resurrection Jesus 'breathed on them, and saith unto them, Receive ye the Holy Ghost'.
Again, being a disciple in the earnest meaning of the term, is beyond our ability, understanding, even with the best of intentions. it only ever comes from th power of Christ at inception and from thereon. why does it amaze me that i cannot follow in obedxience after having gained the knowledge of truth? Is it any different to beome hungy and weak after the finest meal? i know i must nourish again, and the bewilderment of my prolonged weakness that occrus when that meal has passed, is the true mystery
