Stutter.: Rayne-Moore University (Rayne-Moore University Duet Book 2)

by Ruby Darling

“In the fell clutch of circumstance, I have not winced nor cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance My head is bloody, but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears Looms but the Horror of the shade, And yet the menace of the years Finds, and shall find, me unafraid. - Invictus, William Ernest Henley 1888

“if she brings you peace amongst the chaos, if she seeks to be in your arms even when you’re angry, either of you, if she chooses you over and over again, looks at you like you’re the most interesting creature she’s ever set her eyes upon, even if she has no idea what you’re talking about, and loves you despite what a complete shite you are sometimes, you keep her. And you never let her go. A woman like that only comes once in a lifetime. She will love you so fiercely nothing will ever compare.”

Good. I hope he fucking hurls as soon as he gets home. I hope he can’t sleep, and he tosses and turns and can’t eat. I hope his pillow is warm on both sides and they make his favorite book into a movie – not a series – and ruin it.

“I fucking know she’s not, you self-righteous prick. But it’s fine. It’s fine. I love her enough for the both of us. I could love her enough for the three of us and I do.”

“I’m crazy, for sure, baby. But… I’m crazy for you. And only you. I’m near you and I need to be closer. I’m inside of you, and it’s not enough. When I’m away from you, I feel like I’m drowning. But then I see you again and I can finally breathe right. You have totally and completely consumed whatever sanity I had left, and I don’t ever want it back. You’re my heart, baby. Every beat of it is yours.”

If her soul is mine, then mine is hers and I want her to take, take, take it from me until they’re woven together so I can find her in every lifetime.

Because I love her enough to know exactly what I have – a fucking treasure, and I’ll never let her go.

“You are so tragically beautiful; it hurts every atom of my being to look at you. To be near you and not touch you and yet I can’t stop craving you. A drug to an addict. I have tried to rid myself of these feelings and yet they stay. Persistent so that I can’t think. I can’t eat. I can’t breathe. I can’t sleep, unable to function because you haunt me… these eyes, your lips,”

“I don’t think you understand the maddening effect nor the gravity of this situation, Siren. I don’t think you understand exactly how deranged I’ve become just by loving you. If you run, I will chase you. If you hide, I will find you. If you jump, I will catch you. If you fall, I will be there when you land.” He purrs against my skin, sending goosebumps to ripple. I’m afraid to move even though I’m aching. “There is no escaping me anymore and if you want to burn your world down, then I’ll hand you the match and fan the goddamn flames as you set it ablaze. But you and I, we burn together.”

“You want me to let you come?” “Please!” “That’s my sweet fucking girl. Exactly how I want you. Come, Raven, so I can fill you up. Come with me. Be a good girl. There you go. Take every fucking inch of me you desperate, dirty, little cumslut.”

“You are mine, Siren. I have never wanted anything or anyone as much as I want and love you.”

“Let’s check, shall we? Shh Amourette, I’m a doctor. Let me feel this pretty cunt around me so I can check for bruising.”

"I had this girlfriend a few years ago. My first serious girlfriend. I thought I loved her. She did really bad things to me, and I forgave her a lot because I thought that was what love was, you know? Just kept thinking if I was a better boyfriend, or just a better man, she would get better at loving me, too.”

“Just know I do love you. I’m a mean fucking devil with twisted desires Raven; I am not a good nor a kind man, but I’m your devil. Nobody has ever captivated me nor held my attention nor has sucked my dick like it holds the elixir of youth like you do. I want you for as long as I live, until I croak. And even trapped in the ether, will I love you… if you’ll have me.”

“She knows?” “She kind of does but my dad doesn’t.” He lifts a heavy shoulder and lets it fall. “I thought… your parents know about all of us and they’re older than my parents, why wouldn’t my parents be cool with it? Anyway she knows it’s not just me Raven loves, and that I’m okay with it because we all take care of her. You’re with her when I can’t be because of Syndicate matters.” “And your mother said?” He wrinkles his nose and shakes his head. “She waved me off saying she grew up in the eighties. And that an orgy is the last of her concerns.”

“Even in your nightmares, your dreams, your hallucinations, my love for you is the realest thing. Cling to that every time you feel lost, and I’ll always find a way for you to come back to me.”

in two days, it’s Sofia’s extravagant holiday party. Something Damon is invited to, and I’ll be going as his plus-one. I’ll be meeting the great, John Weston Monroe and his wife, Sofia Paloma-Monroe, my girlfriend’s parents… as her doctor’s boyfriend. What the fuck have I allowed my life to become?

I do miss him, and I do still love him… but I miss me more. I love me more. Maybe that’s selfish or brutal of me to even think… but sometimes holding on to someone just because they were in your past causes more damage than just letting go.

“More gifts?” Maverick says. “But she doesn’t know us.” Jonas tilts his head toward Mav. “I talk about you and Damon all the time to her. At this point you’re an extension of me to her, Mav. We’re family.” Mav’s eyes soften. “I suppose it’s a good thing I bought her a gift, too.”

But who out of the two of us is the real beast? Where he’s had to kill in order to keep himself alive, or to get rid of real evil. I’ve killed because I’m a spiteful, angry, rage-driven woman. Fuck, I’m a psycho killer that hears music while she kills.

when she turns to look at me, all I can see is my future. My wife. Mother of my children. I want it all with her. And I will have it. No matter the outcome of the rest of the world – we burn together.

“I loved you longer…” That may very well be true… but I will love her harder.