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Jahquel J.
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October 20 - October 23, 2025
The one thing I had noticed about Zoya was how unaffectionate she was. She loved Capri and Blair, and I knew that, but Capri and Blair were overly affectionate, always giving hugs, and Zoya would always make jokes about them always hugging. Or whenever they went in for a hug, they would almost give her a warning before doing it. I met Menace, and knew that he raised his siblings, so it made sense why Zoya was that way. Goon was the complete opposite, as he rubbed her thighs and couldn’t keep his hands off her, I could tell them together was going to be interesting.
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When we first moved here, he was frustrated with not being able to stand for long or having to hold onto a wall when going to the bathroom. All of it frustrated him and made him hate Polo that much more. He felt robbed of his time and his body, the way it used to be.
As much as I reminded him that I was here for him, it never mattered because he was so deep in his head. At night, he didn’t sleep in the room with me. He was in that damn living room with the TV on mute and sitting on the couch. I wanted my Simmy back, and it was hard being quiet, knowing that I was losing a piece of him every day. I couldn’t remember the last time I felt his lips on mine. His body against mine.
Elijah was in therapy, and it was needed. It had been a few months since he wet the bed, and I thanked Dr. Killian Hill for it. She came twice a week to Ashbourne to have a session with Elijah. She used an office in town that Elijah met her at after school, and they had their sessions. She never gave me everything they discussed but emailed me the important cliff notes and things we should be looking out for.
“My fucking life was almost taken from me, Blair… he fucking tried to take my brother from me and then turned around and took Ellis from his brothers. He tried to murder my fucking niece in her own home… my fucking home burned to the ground, Blair… the home I brought my baby home in… shit is fucking gone and most of the memories … you want me to be happy? Should I fucking start tap dancing to make you feel better?”
okay the last part wasn’t necessary but his reaction is valid. all she wants from him is to communicate
“The problem with chasing someone is, they tend to get used to that. This pregnancy hasn’t been easy for me, I’ve been scared. Scared, but tip toeing around your feelings because I know you’re hurting, too. I need you to show up for me. Not in pieces, not eventually, I needed the shit now… and you haven’t. So, be in your head, but for me and my son? We’re not staying in this depressing ass house. Smoke and drink all you want, because I won’t be here.”
I’ve been the wife that asked him what was wrong, tried to pick his brain and be there. This wasn’t on me, and I wasn’t going to allow him to make me feel that way.
“Can I say something, and you won’t get mad?” “What?” “I’m glad that you left him… men often become too comfortable with us and think we’ll never say bye and leave. Naheim got so comfortable with that, and I never proved him wrong until it was too late, and I started to hate him. Let Quasim chase you, and fucking grovel… you’ve been there, consistent, and he needs to learn that you are his wife. He doesn’t have to do this alone anymore, and he needs to let you in. Meer was the same way, believe it or not.”
yes capri with the advice. it’s always blair being patient and running after him. quasim better put that work in
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It was easier to believe my wife would stick around through sickness and health, and she had. Blair showed up in ways I didn’t even know I needed. That didn’t mean she signed up to be ignored. She didn’t vow to feel unseen in a marriage that was supposed to be her safe space. I couldn’t front, I hadn’t been that for her lately.
Shedding tears with your wife doesn’t make you less of a man.
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I was an Inferno, I may be knocked down, but a nigga never stayed down.
Anjo leaving me did something to me. It made me see how fucking strong she was to walk away. It wasn’t something she would have normally done, because she didn’t do it with Tookie. This time, when she recognized that she was going down the same path, she removed herself. As hurt as I was that I hadn’t been able to share a bed with my wife, and I had hurt her, she was standing on her own. Creating her boundaries and establishing them with me.
Their precious king was gone and now they were quiet. Niggas idolized those fucking Inferno Gods, and I was the nigga that put King Inferno in the ground. Of course, the more money I made, the less I was hiding. I had a gang of niggas that was riding behind me and would light some shit up behind me. They were fucking better than those pussy ass Del Devils.
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That familiar sound echoed in my ear as a red bike zoomed fast by us. With the way Fendi was driving, we got near the bike, and the person held up their index finger and middle finger together with their thumb extended, making a gun, and then bent the thumb twice as if to signal they fired a gun.
We were neck and neck with the bike and the person flipped up their visor and I saw their eyes. Those light color eyes and intense stare were so fucking familiar. He flipped it back down and then zipped right in front of us, causing Fendi to stomp on his brake again, and he was gone.
As I tilted the bottle to my lips, something caught my eye, making me miss my mouth. The liquor spilled all over me. I slowly turned and closed my eyes a few times because I had drank too much and did too many drugs. With a smirk on his face, dressed down in a pair of jeans, his black timbs sloppily laced, and his biker vest on, Quasim Inferno walked into the house. When he turned to dap the nigga Za, I realized that was why he looked so familiar. His back turned slightly, and the back of his vest was clear as day… King Inferno.
“Think fast!” He said quickly, and I looked over and saw the knife he was messing with coming at me, striking me between the eyes. I stumbled against the wall, then slid down, while the vision in one of my eyes darkened and then the second one joined. He tried to play me…
It was like a snap of the finger, and she started hysterically crying while staring at me. I tried to reach for her, and she shoved me away. “Do what to you, my love… the fuck did I do?” “I cannot sleep… my body won’t allow me, and I finally get to sleep, and you wake me up. You so fucking selfish, Quasim!” she started slapping me while climbing out the bed.
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“I love you, Anjo. I’m never walking away from this marriage, and I may not always get it right, but know that I’m working on me and working to be the man you need me to be.” “You’re already the man I want you to be… I just need you to be the man that lets me into your head. Allow me to help you and be your strength sometimes… I’m strong enough, Simmy.”
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The smile that graced my face happened on its own as she looked over at me. This was my wife. The woman that I never thought I would have. The one who knew her worth and didn’t give a fuck that the streets called me King Inferno. A woman that used to be so broken, but had fixed the pieces on her own, and I handed her the glue. So determined to be more than someone’s wife and have her own career and life. My wife.
“oi, bebê,” She looked past Cherish, which confused her, and she turned to face me at the same time mama slid me her sharpest knife. Snatching the knife, I grabbed hold of her hair and pulled her head back, staring into her eyes. “não meus meninos.” She shrieked, as I slid the knife across her neck easily as slicing up butter for my pancakes. The blood beautifully slid down her neck onto the blade as the life slowly left her eyes, and I held her hair in my hands.
That fucking junkie Thea had reemerged after being missing for some time. Thea was the biggest problem in our case. She knew too much and probably had too much evidence against me. The things she witnessed and allowed would send me to prison for the rest of my damn life. That bitch allowed what went on and never complained. As long as she was high, she took Lucia’s call and arranged for me to see Elijah. I was only trying to help the boy and toughen him up.
“You said you like little boys?” The voice caused me to freeze before I heard a swishing sound, and the lights came back on. Menace Caselli stood in front of me with a plastic poncho top and pants over his clothes, and the devil dancing in his eyes. Behind him, the door opened, and another man came in. He was familiar.

