My ongoing issues with my asphyxiating thoughts stopped me from saying it out loud. I don’t want to be her problem, something she needs to worry about. But I want to be selfish, just this once. I want to make her mine, and I want her to want me just as much. I’m not going to push because I don’t know where she truly stands with me. She doesn’t believe in love, I know that much, but I’d love to be the difference. I’d love to win her over, but I don’t want to rush it either.
