I hadn’t ever thought about ending it all until that night but after then, I could never bring myself to do it. I was scared because your ‘please don’t go’ words wouldn’t stop echoing in my head. They were annoying at first, but it was because I felt like I was your pity project. I didn’t think you actually cared, at least that’s what I kept telling myself. Jarvis says I was self-sabotaging because deep down I knew you weren’t, but I couldn’t let myself believe someone actually cared. I also didn’t want someone to care for me. Because who would be stupid enough to want me? I wasn’t worth it,
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