“I’m not fine. I haven’t been for a while. Well…” I clear my throat, the large lump making it hard to speak. “I was okay when I was with…Josie.” Angry tears rush down my face. “She made me feel like me again, but I felt guilty for feeling okay. I felt guilty that Adrian would never get to experience a Josie in his life. I hated myself because she—” Memories of her play in my head. “Was it for me and she made me happy. She made me feel so good, I looked forward to a future with her. I wasn’t thinking about Adrian and the future he wouldn’t get to have. How selfish is that? He died because of
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