It has to do with Austin’s words in my head of ‘too much’ and ‘over the top’ and ‘extremely enthusiastic,’ on top of learning tonight that I might be exactly all three of those things. That I have physical proof right here that maybe I can get someone in my life, but can I keep them there? The short answer is no. And I think I can grow to accept that one day. I can accept it with just about anyone but Fletcher. I’ve had a handsome, kind, big-hearted man tell me I was his best friend before and lost him in the same way you lose your favorite hoodie. One day it’s your everything, the one thing
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