Sadly, we can even be aware that something is killing us, and yet ignore our self-preservation reflexes until all we have left inside us is a death wish. Our addiction is so exhilarating that we think we don’t care if it kills us. We can’t even imagine life without it. And when we do, we think it will be a worthless, boring life that isn’t worth living. We get this warped idea because once the high wears off, we feel ragged, miserable, ugly, worn out, and tired.
