The Reason: How I Discovered a Life Worth Living

by Lacey Sturm

“The only pain is to feel nothing at all.” It is one of the emptiest, deadest feelings.

I feel I am caught in a place for which I was not made. Yet God equips me to carry his brilliance even though I see but dimly through the glass, the fractured glass of a world that thirsts even for a portion of his brilliance. I live and dance in the half-light. I am a shadow chaser. Timothy Willard

To see beauty we must close our eyes, for it is far beyond what our eyes perceive.

I received a new vision of myself in the flash of a prayer, in the spark of a thought, in the gasp of a breath.

But at the same time the horror of my true self was revealed to me, I sensed God reacting to me and was surprised when I realized he wasn’t casting me away but rather drawing me in closer.

People travel to wonder at the height of the mountains, at the huge waves of the seas, at the long course of the rivers, at the vast compass of the ocean, at the circular motion of the stars, and yet they pass by themselves without wondering.2

I laughed at the beauty of God and fell a little more in love with him.

We look back and see all along he had something better for us, something more wonderful, something in line with his greater plan for the entire human race. Something that is not based on fear but rather destroys fear with trust. Something that isn’t based on old wounds but rather heals them through forgiveness and faith.

I don’t think I ever felt more alone. I was weeping for the whole world and no one understood why.

I was weeping for the whole world and no one understood why.

The enemy knows how your faith will rip people out of his hands of death and place them into Christ’s hands of life.

We make empty wishes upon stars that have already begun to burn away, We add false color to hair that has already begun to grey. We place lively spring flowers at the feet of the dead, And we only voice our most meaningful words on our deathbeds. Why is it that we try so hard to paint colors onto things that have already faded away, Yet we never open our eyes to see the bright hues of today?

I am alive, and Christ is The Reason.