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Angel and I had been friends since we were 12, meeting at a summer basketball camp held at the local Boys and Girls Club. We ended up on the same team and had been brothers since.
Because of Angel, I had gone from a C+ student at best to an honors student preparing to take college courses in my sophomore year of high school. The improvement in my grades has made me all the more attractive as a recruit to the top colleges in the country.
Angel and I never held back our feelings, amidst the horror of our upbringings, we opted to take a different path and provide a safe space where vulnerability was welcome. As young black men, we saw what happened when adults lacked emotional intelligence and regulation and vowed to never fall prey to that generational curse.
“Layanna Graves, I’m Angelo James, but my friends call me Angel, and I’m not ready to stop talking to you yet. Let me get your food for you, just tell me what you want, and you can eat with me and my best friends, please?” “ I-I don’t want to intrude.” “How can you intrude if I invited you?” He asked, leaning in to whisper in my ear, “I make you nervous, Layanna Graves?”
“Hi, my name is CJ, you are very pwetty, can you be my girlfriend? I will share my fwavorite dino with you.”
Caleb laughed as he explained that Angel and Maria had become friends because she was in honors calculus with us and wanted to form a study group. I’d learned that Maria was a math major, Caleb was a business major, and Angel was a political science major.
“Keep it arched, I’m still fucking eating.” Yes, I was face down, ass up in Angel’s room while he was on his knees expertly eating my pussy from the back, and I was not ashamed either.
“I know I’m taking you through it, baby, but gimme one more and I’ll clean you up and put you to sleep. I just need to finish the ownership process and make sure my pussy knows she belongs to me now.”
“You and this pussy belong to me now, I don’t give a damn what other nigga is in the picture, that’s dead, you understand me?”
“Pway Dino mama, pway dinoooo!” CJ fussed as he tried to shove the dinosaur into his mother’s lap. “RAWRRRRRR,” I belted out my best dinosaur impression, causing both Maria and CJ to look my way. CJ instantly ran to me, holding his arms out for me to pick him up, to which I obliged.
I need to wake up to your beautiful face and greedy pussy that likes to suck my dick in with every stroke I give her.”
“I wasn’t drunk off anything, I’m your man now, you’re my girl. If you didn’t want that, you should’ve kept that squirting, gushing pussy to yourself and kept your hands off my balls,” causing us both to laugh. From that day forward, I was a permanent staple in their lives.
Dirty talk was my sexual kryptonite, and it did me in every time, even in porn. If he was talking her through it, I was guaranteed to cream and squirt like a broken fire hydrant.
Never in a million years did I think I would be navigating life as a widow while exploring my deepest desires with my deceased husband’s best friend, who was also navigating life as a widower.
Angel and I vowed to make sure they were always okay, however things never work out how we anticipate because six months after losing Maria, I received a knock at my door that would change my and my kids lives forever when a state trooper delivered the news that Angel had been killed on impact by an 18 wheeler when the driver fell asleep at the wheel.
Losing Angel and Maria opened a door that allowed Caleb and me to keep in contact daily, checking on each other, sharing our grief, pain, anguish, good memories, and laughs, resulting in the building of a strong friendship through our immense losses and finding love in each other as our healing blossomed.
There was nothing off limits when Caleb and I fucked and made love, yes, love, because I was in the same boat as Caleb, I was in love with him, but accepting that would feel like the ultimate betrayal to Angel and Maria.
When I was drafted to the Los Angeles Lakers as the number one pick, I made sure the first thing I did was give Maria the wedding, house, car, family, and life she deserved and always dreamed of, then I did the same for Angel.
Yanna had a round face with full lips that always held a slight pout, perfect white teeth that could light up a room when she smiled, and the most beautiful almond-shaped eyes with long eyelashes. She had always been a plus-size beauty, possessing perfectly curved hips, squeezable thighs, a nice, plush stomach, and full breasts, all wrapped in gorgeous, rich umber skin that looked like the finest silk.
Our closeness happened unexpectedly and started so simple. Yanna and I would check on each other daily via text, and the texts turned to calls, the calls to FaceTime, and then we started hanging out innocently.
I needed to know if she would be a good little slut and take my dick, tongue, and fingers in every hole. Could I train her to suck and lick me from the head of my dick to my asshole? Would she enjoy playing in my asshole and milking me for every drop of cum.
As my hand slid up her body until I reached her neck and grabbed it, adding just enough pressure to make her moan, I told her, “Yanna, I’m about to lay back and you gone hop your thick ass on my face and feed me this pussy until you cum, do you understand?”. “Yes,” she replied on a moan. “Yes, who?” I asked. “Yes, daddy!” she cried out as her flood gates broke and an orgasm ripped through her entire body, and she squirted all in my face.
“I haven’t tasted or fucked you yet, and look at you squirting, get the fuck on my face, NOW,”
“Yanna, don’t test me right now, because the way I’m feeling, I’ll yank them little ass biker shorts off you and spank your ass and pussy until you’re sore and squirting everywhere,” he spoke matter of factly and continued, “I have been calling and texting you for the last week and for some reason, some bizarre reason, the woman that I have talked to everyday for the last however many months, can no longer be reached after her pussy turned me every which way but fucking loose,”
“Yanna, don’t play with me. Who do you plan to date, knowing they won’t make you feel as nasty and x-rated as I do? You and that pussy mine, and I’m not backing down. If you wanted to date, you shouldn’t have surrendered every hole on your body to me.” his statement left me visibly flushed.
Dr. Layanna James was recognized as one of the world’s top pediatric cardiothoracic surgeons. Most surgeons specialized in either cardiac, cardiovascular, congenital heart, general thoracic, or transplant procedures; however, Layanna James specialized in all areas and was the standard for medical marvel.
skipped a beat. Initially, I blamed myself for being a freaky ass nigga in need of a nut for my infatuation with Yanna, but with each passing day, I realized it was more. It was just her and everything about her that had me losing the battle
Finally getting a moment to myself, I looked across the venue and noticed Caleb comfortably talking to a strikingly beautiful woman. There seemed to be some familiarity between them, so I stood and watched how their interaction would unfold. She was flirtatious and touchy-feely. Caleb was definitely interested as I watched him look at her lustfully and bite his bottom lip. Though I had no right to be, possession and jealousy moved through me.
“I know, baby, she’s mine and I love her. I love you, Yanna, I’m so fucking hypnotized by you. There’s nothing I wouldn’t do to please you, to make your heart smile, to make your soul happy. Daddy needs you, Yanna, please tell me you feel the same,”
I prayed Angel and Maria could forgive us for falling in love with each other. I refused to let her go.
Having Dana back in my life in a romantic capacity was a curveball I wasn’t expecting to be thrown my way, but with Yanna by my side, I was willing to hit it out of the park. Now that we’d gotten the fun out of the way, I hoped we could get cleaned up and discuss the details of our arrangement before ending the night.
As we parted ways, I felt no jealousy about Yanna going to bed with Ahmir, and she showed no signs either as Dana headed to mine, further solidifying our decision to try something different for our second beginnings.
As Yanna and I both sat there looking confused, Liah picked up where Rio left off, “Mom, Uncle Cal, the 6 of us had a bet going about you two hooking up. CJ, Rio, and I said that y’all were definitely getting cozy and had become more than friends. Milo, Callie, and AJ said we were delusional and that would never happen,” she laughed and continued, “However, we knew better because every time we called one of you, the other was around and it would be all all hours of the day, morning, noon, night, at home, or out and about,” she finished.
“I fucking knew it! I’m gone need my money via Zelle as soon as we hang up, Callie, Milo, and AJ. Easiest stack I ever made,” causing myself and Yanna to lose it as we started laughing and talking shit with the kids.
The more I learned about Dana, the more enamored I was by her presence and aura. She was innovative, successful, and possessed the beauty and grace of a model, while being the absolute sweetest soul. I
I’m a firm believer that women deserve the space to bloom and receive pleasure without a man being at the forefront, trying to take up space. Reading the room had become a lost art amongst many, but not me. I could tell that this beautiful woman had spent a lot of her life doing what others thought she should, rather than what she wanted, and that included embracing her love and desire for women romantically and sexually. When this was all said and done, I believed we’d be adding Ajaih to our polycule.
“As a matter of fact, I was pissed when you got with Maria because I wanted to see how good she tasted and your big man on campus face ass took my girl,”
“Intrigued by Danger, huh? It definitely makes sense that you’re a Declan and Elle fan,”
I spent so many years believing she was weak and so in love with my father that she was willing to put up with any bullshit he dropped at her feet, when the truth was she had thrown her body, mind, spirit, and soul in front of my family and me to protect us.
When Angel was snatched from me, I never imagined a time when I would be able to move on and love again. Life was truly an enigma, and I wouldn’t change it for anything.
