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Gibs didn’t have to be careful with my feelings and I didn’t have to be careful with his. We could argue, fight, and say the worst things to each other and still be okay because we were brothers, and brothers always came back together in the end.
“I’m not running away with you again.” This time I caught the basketball he flung at my head. “The last time we tried that, you pissed in my sleeping bag.” I threw the ball back at him as hard as I could. “With me in it.”
I didn’t feel bad, though. I didn’t feel like screaming. Instead, I felt warm. My thoughts were nice and slow. It always happened when I sat next to Shannon Lynch. It made me want to sit with her forever.
“Sorry, lad, you’re on your own.” Snickering, Feely bolted for the door. “I have four sisters,” he called over his shoulder. “I suffer enough.”
have Patrick and Gerard sleep over tonight. I want Lizzie.” Nobody had ever said that about me before. But Claire did. She said she wanted me.
but it still wasn’t enough because when she had to leave, I didn’t feel like myself until she came back to me.
was feeling. I could feel again. I didn’t have to scream to make the lady go away, either. She disappeared when he found me in the tub. She was afraid of Hugh. Because he was good. Because he was brave. A brave knight.
Mark didn’t fix me this time. Hugh did. And he didn’t have to hurt me to do it…
It would be okay. Caoimhe wouldn’t die. Mark gave her the medicine. He used his special powers to fix her. It was good. This is good.
Im livid rn
“What about my heart?” He laughed softly. “Your heart works just fine.” “But what if it breaks?” “That won’t happen.” “How come?” He turned another page before saying, “Because I won’t break it.” “But what if someone else breaks it?” “Not going to happen.” “How come?” “Because I’ve got it locked away safe and sound.”
“From this day forward, we’re going to do things my way.”
She tried to tell you... The signs were there
“I mean, what am I supposed to say to that? Sorry about the invisible monsters that only exist in your head, dear sister.”
Cmon hugh your a smart boy figure it out
Living was a lot easier when Hugh was nearby.
A shiver racked through Gibs, and he reached for my hand, squeezing it almost as tightly as Lizzie did when this creep was around.
FIGURE IT OUT HUGH
Her eyes were glassy from the tears I knew she would never spill in front of me or my sister. Because she saved those up for when she was in the bath and thought no one could hear her. I heard her, though. Every night.
That was a problem I had: obsessing over things I loved the most. It wasn’t something I had control over. When I felt things, I felt them with every part of my heart. When I was sad or cross, it was the same. I couldn’t be steady or still in myself. I felt the full wrath of my emotions at any given chance.
Dammit, I should have asked Liz to be my girlfriend when we were on holidays. If I had, then I wouldn’t be sitting in a circle with my friends, trying to mask a panic attack.
The most embarrassing part of the whole ordeal was my body’s sudden reaction to her, which made it even harder to spend time with my best friend.
LOL
“I’ll be all alone.” “Uh, hello?” Feely, who had arrived shortly after Liz, interjected from his perch on the beanbag. “What am I? Dog shit?” “Oops, sorry, Patrick,” Claire replied, reddening. “I forgot you were here.” “Lovely.” Feely rolled his eyes. “Just lovely.”
“When she’s not so sad anymore.” “She’s never not going to be sad,” Gibsie replied, sniffling again. “Trust me, that kind of sadness never goes away. The world just stops seeing it.”
without displaying favoritism. I knew no such favoritism existed in my mother’s heart, but I wasn’t above emotional blackmail. Not if it got me back to her.
I was quite aware that my calm approach in a medical crisis was in direct contrast to most lads my age, but then again, most lads my age weren’t fascinated by aortic root surgery.
Lol nerd
whispers were rarely coherent, I listened carefully to every word because I knew she was trying to tell me something important. Something her mind refused to make sense of.
My memories continued to fuse with my imagination until I couldn’t tell the difference.
“Sounds like a plan,” I offered, willing myself to be the daughter she needed me to be.
It hurt a little less that way, and I could manipulate my mind to separate the two. Because the monster never said the name Thor.
Because this was excruciating for me. Walking the line. Keeping my thoughts to myself. Burying my pain. It was bubbling inside of me. One of these days, I was going to go off like a bomb. I only prayed I could hold on.
I found myself rapidly shifting between the craving to have sex and the yearning to slit my wrists.
The worst part of it all was that I still loved her, and I still wanted to be with her. And I fucking hated myself for feeling that way.
My home had become her reprieve, and breakup or not, I would never take that away from her.
I couldn’t keep up with my thoughts. They were moving too quickly in my head. Too many thoughts. Too many feelings. I was so tired, but I couldn’t sleep because my mind wouldn’t stop tormenting me.
All the regret I had for decisions I had no memory of making. I made them, though. That, I was sure of.
“You keep your goddamn mouth shut about her being vulnerable or any of it,” I threatened. “Because if you ruin her reputation, I will bury you.”
Aweee i want a hughie
“Feely invited us.” “Feely.”
Bro feely always wants a girl that hugh gets ... When do i get his story
not terribly surprised to learn Feely was in the choir.
You brought that up earlier in the book whT uou mean
“You.” She pointed a finger in my face. “Call my girl.”
Csey is a good ass wing women
“You’re my best fucking friend, asshole,” he snapped back. “I shouldn’t have to tell you.” “Some best friend,” I shot back, rubbing my nose. “Domestic fucking battery, Feely.”
Best fucking lines in the whole book
Once the anesthesiologist arrived, he would put me to sleep with the mask. Once I was out, electrical currents would be sent into my brain through the pads, and I would have a seizure.
Vile
