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Jahquel J.
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October 19 - October 20, 2025
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I hated this. Having to look my baby in the eyes and tell her that someone was in our home, wanting to harm us – I hated it. Meer and I had started telling her that we carried guns for her protection. Meer stressed he wanted the girls to always know what was up, and never to be defenseless when it came to the life we lived.
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Wylie was insane, and we all knew to leave his ass alone. He ran his business and minded his damn business – and truthfully – I think that was what was best for the world. When that nigga let loose, there was no stopping his ass. He served a few tours in Iraq and had PTSD, so even I knew to leave his crazy ass alone.
When Wylie finished serving the country, he came back just to end up homeless. He served this fucked up country that was built on the backs of our ancestors and was rewarded with homelessness. The country got what they wanted from him and then tossed his ass to the side.
to think most of the veterans who served our country end up losing everything and the government never doing shit about it is fucking wild.
“Walk that rocket launcher back in that fucking house, Wy… I want my fucking house at the end of this.” “Fuck.” I heard him mutter. “Nigga, you was gonna blow my fucking ho… never mind.” I quickly ended the call because the footsteps had stopped, and I was trying to pinpoint where the fuck these niggas were in my crib. I was killing niggas regardless, but if they picked my wife’s panties up from the floor and smelled them, I was really gonna lose my shit.
The motorcycle dipped down on the block and was scarce, as the flashing lights illuminated off the houses on the street. “Fuck.” Wylie muttered. Three cop cars pulled onto my lawn and jumped out with their guns drawn at us. “Put the guns down now!” They hollered through the speakers on the cars.
they won’t hesitate to lay our black asses out and pretend their cameras don’t work,” Wylie whispered as he slowly put the gun down and got on his knees with his hands up in surrender. “Daddy, please!” Peach screamed as Helene held her back.
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Staring down at my clothes, I noticed that I was wearing all white. This wasn’t the first time I had been in this state. I remember the last time was when Tookie pushed me down the steps at our apartment. Back then, I was able to see my mother sitting on the edge of the bed of a very bright room.
“Anjo, I always wanted to meet you. My daddy dreams about you all the time… I’m Harley.” She gently slipped her hand into mine. “Har…Harley… Jesus,” I touched my chest as the tears poured down my face. I wanted to take her hand and bring her back to her father. She was right here in front of me, wearing the most beautiful smile.
“I sent him Elijah… Elijah needs him. I hear his prayers sometimes.” She looked into my eyes. “Anjo, things have happened to Elijah, you have to protect him and protect my daddy. Love my daddy enough for me, too... okay?” she slowly slipped her hand out my grasp. “I promise to protect them both.”
“Sug don’t fucking listen, but I’m glad she didn’t listen this time… she had to stand in front of me and protect me. I’m her protector and my baby put her fucking body in front of mine with all those cops aiming guns at me… fuck.” He kneeled down and I watched him, knowing my brother.
“I don’t give a fuck who he is and what his father is to the city. He pointed a gun at my husband, threatening to pull the trigger while my daughter screamed for her father.” She paused. “Oh, his bodycam doesn’t work… oh, perfect because my home security cameras and my neighbors’ do… yeah, do that because had I not been there, they would have fucking shot a man that was defending his home…. Get me the fucking police commissioner now! His fucking granddaughter could have been murdered, yank his janky ass out that fucking bed!”
“He got some strag pregnant before he got locked up… shorty walk around like she got pregnant and had the prophet’s seed. I want his son to grow the fuck up without his pops and moms around… I want that fucking blood line to self-destruct and it starts with his son. I’m a patient man, so I’ll wait until his son grows up before I send him with his parents… fuck innocent.” “Welcome, Diablo,” Wylie muttered.
Red was my uncle, my father’s half-brother. They had the same mother, but different fathers.
When the Inferno Gods was established, he told my uncle he could either leave or be removed from the state. He willingly left and moved to Delaware, where the Del Devils were born. Although it was tension between the two, neither of them ever came at the other that way. At the end of the day, we were family, and although we were dysfunctional, we ain’t let the outside see that shit.
“Simmy, your home… I tried to get everything… I wanted to make sure everyth—” I quieted her with a kiss on the lips as I sat on the edge of the bed. She crawled into my lap as I held her so fucking tight, I was scared I would crack a bone. “You can’t be replaced, Anjo… if I would have lost you…”
“No disrespect, Sim, but fuck whatever you about to say. B is my best friend, like a sister to me. I know she loves the fuck out of you and has proven that shit. Check your shit and whatever you feeling and realize that you deserve the good shit happening to and around you. She could have fucking died, and she still here with us. Sim, you deserve happiness and love. You’ve spent so many years punishing yourself and asking God for forgiveness that you can’t even see when he’s actually blessing you.”
“The fuck you talking to, Blaze?” “You, nigga. Keep pushing her away and you gonna push her out your life… then you gonna wanna kill her new nigga cause you fucked up. I’m forever riding with you, but I ain’t picking sides when it comes to that woman having happiness, even if it’s not with you. I get you scared… shit is scary to give your heart after losing love, but the shit is worth it. If you gonna love her, then do it, Pop… if not, leave her alone and don’t do that back-and-forth shit.” he pushed up from the wall he was leaning on. “You, King Inferno, show em what fucking with Queen
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I mean, shit, sometimes parents could feel like their child was a burden because life got rough. No parent actually acted that way or told their child that. Thea was the exception to the rule. Elijah didn’t matter to her, so when she started to really neglect him, I knew all hope was lost with her. She treated him like he had ruined her life, and she resented him for it.
As we became closer, and I learned that he pissed the bed, the shit had me looking at his mother differently. Like Capone said, something happened to him, and it was easy to ignore because deep down, I wasn’t ready for the pain I knew I would feel and the wrath that I would go on when I found out exactly what happened to him.
“Blair…” She held her hand up. “You’re letting them win, Quasim. I told you that I will walk through the fire with you… yeah, I didn’t think it’d be an actual fire, but I am here. If you’re going to become distant, I would rather you do it now. God and everyone else knows how much I love you.” She started coughing as she removed the rosary from around her neck. “Take this and go if that’s what you plan on doing. I’m not chasing you this time… I deserve to have someone choose me like I have been choosing you. Go with Capella and make sure Elijah and everyone is safe.” She held the rosary out
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Allowing her to find a love that wouldn’t have her hurt was something that made sense. Except, I couldn’t do that because I loved this woman with everything. Not having Anjo in my life would be like tossing dirt onto a coffin, although she was alive. I couldn’t picture my life without her, and all the guilt I was carrying was hard to push to the side. A nigga felt like a bitch for allowing someone to touch my woman. My Anjo.

