The Story of Me (Carnage, #2)

by Lesley Jones

Fuck, I would’ve gladly taken Sean’s place if it meant my Kitten living a happy life. I would’ve given my life for his and the baby.

The biggest lies we tell, George, are the ones we tell ourselves.”

Can you truly love someone with everything you are but still love someone else, still fuck someone else behind their back, because you love them too?

“Tiger.”

“Kitten?”

“How the fuck are you, Tiger?”

“I’m lost. I’m on my own. I’m where nobody can find me. I’m invisible and I miss you. I wish you were here; you would’ve stopped me. I think I told him that I love you. He laughed and it was you, your laugh, and I told him that I love you.”

“Why are you here?” I ask

“I’m an investor in the club.

“In

“You walk into mine… again.” I give a small laugh.

“I wasn’t supposed to be here tonight.

Then when I found out you were here, I got off the phone, rearranged a few things and booked a flight back.

Oh, he was coming to find me.

He lifts my chin with his index finger so my eyes meet his.

“I needed to know you were okay. I needed to know if all the things you said on the pho...

“You told me on the phone that you had told someone you loved me, that you’d always loved me.

I just… I wanted to see you. I wanted to hear you say those things to my face.”

“I never gave us a chance, did I,

“Good-looking and a multitapletasker, a multiple, a multitasker, wow.”

“Baby, you’ve felt nothing till you’ve felt my fingers,” he wiggles his middle finger at me, “my tongue,” he sticks out his tongue and moves it suggestively, “and my cock,” he gyrates his hips, “all in action at the same time… Shit, sorry, no not you, love.”

“You hurt me, Kitten. I don’t hurt for anyone, but you hurt me and you fucking broke me, and I don’t know if I can take a chance on you doing that to me again.”

“I did love you, Cam. I think I’m still in love with you now.”

“Take some time to think about why you want to be with me. I don’t want to be just someone to help you through until the next love of your life comes along. I want the next love of your life to be me.”

“Being here with you tonight and not touching you has nearly killed me. I’m aching for ya, Kitten. I wanna kiss ya, lick ya, taste and fuck ya. I wanna bury myself inside ya, feel that tight little cunt of yours throb and pulse around my cock when you come. I want to hear those little noises you make when I flick my tongue over your clit, but I know, if I so much as kiss you, we won’t be making it out of this room for at least a week. And I know, that I will be wanting you by my side and in my bed every morning and every night till the day I die. Until you decide that’s what you want too, I’ve got to keep my hands off you.”

“You’re mine now. You’re fucking well mine. No running away, no leaving. You go, I will bring you back, every time, Kitten. I’ll hunt you down and tie you to my fucking bed.”

“Where, Kitten, where d’ya wanna feel me?” He licks me from front to back and pushes the two fingers that were at my clit inside me and curls them. My whole body shudders.

“You like my fingers there, Kitten, or d’ya want my cock there?”

“So where shall I put my fingers, Kitten, if my cock’s in your cunt, where shall I put my fingers?”

“More, Kitten, you want more of this?” He pulls his finger from inside me but then circles two around my hole.

“Turn over, Kitten. It’s been too long since I’ve seen you naked.”

“I’m going to taste you now, Kitten, all of you. I want to hear you moan and call my name. I want you to tell me when you can’t take any more and then I’m going to slide inside and fuck you like you’ve never been fucked before.”

“I wish I could kiss away the pain, Kitten. I wish there was a way I could make this better for you.”

“I love the fuck out of you, Kitten. You have the power to destroy me, please don’t?”

“I fucking love the fuck out of you, Tiger. I want and need you inside me. Please make love to me.”

We glisten as the light from the lamp catches us at the right angle, and as I look over his face when he looks over my body, I feel a sense of peace come over me.

“Love me, Cam, please. Forgive me and just try and love me. Even though I don’t deserve you, I want you. I need you so much.”

“We’ve got this. We’ve got this, Kitten. We’ll make this work if it fucking kills us.”

“Now you go and enjoy every one of those nine inches he’s got on offer, because if I was in your shoes, I know that I bloody well would.”

“There’s nothing between us now, Kitten, nothing at all, and I would really, really, like to be inside you.” I give him a small smile.

“I’m gonna fuck you till you scream,” he says as he stands up.

“But first, Kitten…”

“Yes, I want to marry you. I want to own you, possess you. I want the whole world to know you’re mine. Like I said earlier, I want a house, a big one and I want to fill it with our children. We’ve both lost so much, Kitten. I’m not losing you again. I can’t. It’d kill me.”

“We’re doing this. Me and you, we’re finally getting our story. It’s finally our time.”

“If you won’t kiss me, let me stick my cock in your mouth,” he says quite seriously.

“I thought it was my birthday?”

“It is and allowing you to suck my cock is m...

“That’s not nice, Kitten.”

“Neither is sucking your cock. It makes me gag. It’s too big. Your cock’s built for fucking, not sucking.”

I love you, Kitten. I’ve loved you for a very long time. Whether we’ve been together or apart I’ve loved you, and I know that tradition dictates that I get down on one knee and do this, but you deserve so much more than one knee. So here I am, in front of you now, on both knees, asking you, would you please make me the happiest man alive and do me the honour of becoming my wife?” He reaches up and uses his thumb to brush