Larger Than Life

by Jodi Picoult

The matriarch is a knot that holds together a rope made of many strings.

The bond between a mother and a child weighed nothing on a scale; it took up no room in a test tube. But most of us would have a hard time saying it didn’t exist.

There is a reason people say being a mother is the hardest job in the world: You do not sleep and you do not get vacation time. You do not leave your work on your desk at the end of the day. Your briefcase is your heart, and you are rifling through it constantly. Your office is as wide as the world, and your punch card is measured not in hours but in a lifetime.

If you get hurt, it’s always your own fault. “Maybe. But it’s still mine to make.”

Simply because I couldn’t see something didn’t mean it wasn’t there.

What we could not see clearly, we didn’t have to pretend to understand.

I think about the moon, which is always in the sky, but only comes to life when she is wrapped in the arms of the night.

She was a part of me, and if you carved away a part of yourself, you bled to death.

“I didn’t plan to love you. And by the time I knew I did, I couldn’t tell you what you deserved to know.”

As it turns out, you can love someone too much.

Then, when they leave, your heart goes missing. And no one can survive that great a loss.

The thing is, it’s the pains in the ass that change the world.

I’m crying for all the things we lose that we cannot get back.

“For someone who knows so much about the brain,” my mother says, “you know absolutely nothing about the heart.”

I had to learn how to be a mother before I realized how lucky I am to be a child.