There is a connection, I said. I felt guilty about not engaging, not being there emotionally. Working was what I did instead of engaging. Working, as you once pointed out, was the way I had found to not be there emotionally. You had this very successful other place to go, he said. You created this place where you didn’t have to engage. You created another world. And were rewarded for it. I would guess you were finding refuge in this alternate world from the time you were a very young child.
