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“You love me?” “I do. I’m in love with you, Freckles.”
“Are you going to be my forever, Freckles?” She nods, and we both break into a smile, giggling, and kissing
Fuck. She’s so beautiful.
“Can we stay here forever?” “When it comes to you, Freckles, I’d do anything.” And I mean it. She wants to stay here; I’ll make it happen. She wants to move to a different planet; I’ll have us on the next fucking rocket out of here.
Does that mean I can have babies with a psychopath, stab someone eighteen times and sleep with someone I work with?”
Him needing you is dangerous for you both.”
I need to see her. I need to hear her voice. I need to touch her skin. I need to know this is real, that I am real. Her hair is dark. Her lips are pink. Her freckles cluster over her skin. She has tattoos that I drew for her when I was a teenager. She is… She is…
Maybe if I die, I’ll reincarnate into a dog. Stacey likes dogs. She’ll cuddle me. I like her cuddles. Or maybe I can haunt her – make sure she doesn’t meet anyone else.
I can’t wait to see Stacey beat the shit out of Cassie.
Lu’s mask is pushed up and she’s running away from Base, but she’s laughing. He catches her from behind, and I can almost hear her squeal as he lifts her and drags her into a corner. Then the crowd morphs, and I lose sight of them.
“You’re going to play this game with me,” he whispers against my lips. He tastes like smoke and mint and everything I’ve missed. “The only person stopping me from pulling my gun out and blowing someone’s brain out is you – I need you. I can hear them. Taunting and laughing at me. I can fucking feel them everywhere, but I only want to feel you.”
“Make them go away, Freckles.” “Make what go away?” I manage to ask. “The voices.”
“I need you,” he whispers against my throat as he nips at the skin there. “I need to know you’re real. I need to know you’re alive.”
Me: Where are you? I want to see you. Kade: And I want to see you run.
Kade: Run and hide. Unless you want everyone to witness me fucking you? Having an audience won’t stop me – I’ll take you in front of the entire party.
“If you meant that, then you’d actually block me and not message me back. If you really wanted me to stay away from you, you’d stop phoning me when you have a fucking bad day or having me fly all the way to fucking America to sleep in your bed. Do you know how much of a head fuck that is for me? I want you. I wanted you when we kissed during dares. I wanted you when we kissed months later. Cuddling in bed. FaceTiming while we both fell asleep. And I wanted you the night we spent with the other couple. Don’t you get that? It’s not a quick fuck. I want you.”
Kade: If you keep heading downstairs, people will see us. I think you really want them to witness you getting your ass fucked. Me: You’d need to catch me first, dickhead.
“Ty moy, Vesnushki.”
You're mine freckles.
“I knew you were delicious, Freckles,”
“I just needed a reminder.”
“Is this what you need?” I ask softly. “You need the control?” Kade stays silent. But I understand. He’s been forced into sex, had zero control over his life for months, so this must be him trying to get it back. I’m more than happy to give it to him.
I feel an intense need to please him.
“Let go, Freckles. Strangle my cock while you scream for me.”
She seems to like sucking me off while I’m smoking a joint. We both cut off cigarettes, but as soon as I build a J, she’s already tying her hair back and dropping to her knees. I’ve been stoned a lot lately.
I’m ready to tell everyone she’s fucking mine and I belong to her. You see that girl there? Mine. All mine.
“You’re killing me, Freckles.”
Wearing my art like a trophy. Branded as Kade fucking Mitchell’s property.
She got better and wanted to go out, and yeah… her rule was that I couldn’t touch her, only the other guy.”
“I promise I only fucked the guy while he was fucking her.”
“I need them to kill Bernadette and Archie Sawyer. And their daughter. Her name is Cassie.”
That girl in my bed is everything to me.
I pull the duvet over Stacey and kiss her forehead, telling myself over and over again that she’s real. She’s alive. She’s safe. Barry and Base will keep her safe.
“You cheated on me a month after we lost our daughter. Not with just anyone either. You screwed Jason. My big brother. No matter how many times we fuck, I will never ever fucking forgive you.” And then I walk out and slam the door.
That she can have every fractured shard of my heart, if only she knows how to fix it back together – but I’m an asshole, and I broke her heart instead.
Because not only is she my weakness, but she’s also my strength – my main reason for continuing, the air to my fucking lungs. When I’m around her, I feel like the person I was before – the teenager who fell in love with a beautiful girl and had no idea how to handle the emotion. The kid who always looked at her, even before I kissed her for the first time.
“I want to keep the baby. I want to have a baby with you, Kade Mitchell.”
“I get to have a family with you.”
Fuck. Imagine that? Stacey Mitchell. It has a ring to it, kinda? Wait, would she even want the same name as my dad? Maybe I’ll take her name. Kade Rhodes. No.
I’m going to be a girl-dad. A mini-Stacey by my side – my little princess.
It seems she has no idea how much I’m obsessed with her. Not just with her looks, but her heart, her fucking soul. I love her. I love Stacey, and nothing will ever change that. She could cut off my dick and refuse to have sex with me for the rest of our lives and I’d still bend over backwards for the girl. Kind of whipped, but I don’t care.
“I want to be enough for you, my little princess,” I say, choking up for some reason. “I’ll never get drunk around you, and I’ll stay off the cigarettes. I’ll even stop smoking joints when you get here. I’m going to make sure I’m the best version of myself, so I can be a good daddy for you.”
“You’ve told him my demands?” I roll my eyes. “Yes, he’s aware you want me nearby.
“Kade gave me eighty-six million pounds?”
We’ll get through this. We’ll survive this grief. We’ll make our angel proud of us.
Can I love her and still be obsessed with her? Because I am.
I promise I won’t lose our baby again.”
“There’ll be no other ending for us, Freckles, because you’re fucking it for me.” Fuck. After tomorrow night, I get to have it all. I’ll finally have all of her.
“Someone by the name of Christopher Fields tried to hack into our systems, and my team backfired it and downloaded some of his files. Pictures, videos, you name it. Very incriminating.”
She tried to tell me about him, and I walked away.
A camera is sitting in the corner of Jason’s room, where three guys and Stacey’s stepbrother make the bed and carry a barely conscious Jason in, sitting him against the wall opposite the bed.
