This question left me wearing blinders, unable to see how my doubts and insecurity dominated our conversations and marriage. I loved and served her relentlessly. Did thousands of dishes. Went on a thousand spontaneous dates. Bought her hand-made dresses. Surprised her with cards, flowers, and original art. I lavished her with gifts and worked hard to please her. But I still missed it. I still missed her, at the deep soul level. I was unable to give her everything. My soul was unable to get past the questions that haunted me. Am I a man? Am I competent? Do I please you? What do you think of me?
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