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“You’re so fucking fit.” I poked his bicep, then slid my palm onto his pec, squeezing the firm muscle lightly. He swatted my hand away with a laugh. “Are you sure you’re straight? You’re kind of feeling me up here, mate. And you just called me fit.” “I didn’t mean fit as in hot. I meant like, physically fit. You know.”
Nate’s face flashed in my brain, the lazy grin he’d given me when I was sliding my hand over his chest— Fuck.
Lifting my shirt, I wiped it across my brow. When I lowered it, I noticed Charlie’s gaze flicking away from me, his cheeks flushing.
“You’re fit as fuck.” Whoa. I’d said the same thing to him in the pub, but there was something about that low rasp in his voice— “Fit as in physically fit or sexy fit?” “Both. Fuck. No.” Rubbing his hand over his mouth, he groaned. “You know. I didn’t mean it that way.”
“Fuck. Do you even fucking know?” he ground out, his gaze never leaving mine. “Kn-know what?” “How it feels. To be jealous of your own fucking sister. Do you know how fucked up that is, Charlie?”
“Yeah? You feel jealous? What about me? When she kissed me, I felt guilty for days! Because of you!”
I stepped out of my shorts and walked towards him. His mouth fell open, his eyes growing huge as I drew closer. He was so still, I wasn’t even sure he was breathing. When I reached him, I dipped my head to his ear. “You’re fucking gorgeous,” I breathed, unable to deny the truth, and he shivered, inhaling sharply. “You’re straight,” he whispered. “Am I?”
I realised our hands were resting next to each other, and he was carefully stroking his little finger over mine in a wordless gesture of comfort.
“You’re fucking sexy, and I’m average. Of course I’m gonna focus on that.” I leaned in, cupping his chin with my fingers. “There’s nothing average about you, Charlie B.”
“I can’t believe you’re here,” I murmured when we parted. “How could I celebrate my win without you, Charlie B?”
Nate shrugged as if it were no big deal, and it hit me all over again. He’d played two hours of football, which in itself was exhausting, and then he’d driven approximately a hundred and fifty miles so he could see me, instead of celebrating with the rest of his team.
“I want it both ways. I’ve never done any ass play or anything, but I wanna try it all. Fuck me, Nate. Make me yours.” “You’re already mine.”
“I discovered something about myself as well. I like having a dick in my ass. A lot. Even the bit at the beginning where you stretched me out. I liked the burn. Fuck, I love dick.” “My dick,” I growled, suddenly possessive, and his eyes widened. His lips curved upwards.
His fingers moved, and I realised he was using his cum to draw a heart shape on my skin. “Your dick, attached to you, you sexy, possessive fucker.”
“You’re a menace, Charlie B,” I said, lifting my head to kiss the tip of his nose.
Elliot shuddered. “Don’t remind me. Oh! Cole! Huxley!” he suddenly called, his attention diverted by two guys making their way along our row, one with dark hair and the other bleached blond. “That’s your cousin, yeah?” Elliot nodded. “My cousin and his boyfriend, Huxley. Hux is in a band.”
His head turned, just slightly, and I watched, my breath caught in my throat, as he scanned the rows of spectators. When his gaze connected with mine, my heart stuttered, and for a second, it felt like the world stood still, and we were the only two people that existed.
LSU supporters stormed the field, a mass pitch invasion, and I was swept up with them, running faster and faster until I reached Nate. He didn’t even pause for a second, yanking me into his arms when I reached him, his mouth coming down on mine. Wrapping my arms even more tightly around him, I kissed him again and again. “So. Fucking. Proud of you.”
I was here, in the place I’d chosen, and I couldn’t breathe. Dropping my duffel bag, I slid down the wall until I hit the floor, burying my face in my hands as a sob tore from my throat. Hot, thick tears trickled between my fingers, dropping soundlessly to the varnished pine floorboards.
“Did you really mean what you said?” “For fuck’s sake. Yes.” I pulled him closer, placing my mouth to his ear. “I love you, you wanker.”
I realised his eyes were as wet as mine. “My pinball prince. My unexpected match. My fucking everything.” He captured my mouth in a soft, slow kiss, and I lost track of time, consumed by the man I loved.
“Look. Just so you know, I was fully prepared to compromise. I had a whole plan for my shifts and putting money aside to get the train to see you. I wasn’t going to give up on us.” Nate’s lip trembled as he read through the notes I’d stayed up half the night preparing. “You did all this for me?” “Yeah.” “Fuck, Charlie. For me?” “Yeah. You’re worth it,” I said. “I wasn’t gonna lose you without a fight.”
“I love you, Charlie Brooks. I love you so much. I can find another postgrad course, but I can’t find another you.”
My gaze returned to Nate. I love you, he mouthed, and my stomach flipped. I love you, too, I mouthed back. We stayed there for hours, basking in the rays of the summer sun as Huxley strummed his guitar.
“So many things I want to do to you, and I want you to do to me. It might take a long time.” My breath hitched. “How long?” Lifting my T-shirt over my head, he dropped it to the floor. “Years.” I tugged his T-shirt off, palming his pecs. “Years?” “Yeah.” Lowering himself into a crouch, he slid his hands up my thighs, leaning in to nuzzle at my hardening cock. “Years and years.”
“You’re a fucking miracle, Charlie Brooks. How did I get so lucky?” “I’m the lucky one. Nate Glover loves me.”
Thank you, Glevum FC, for bringing families together. And to Jordan Emery and Theo Lewin for normalising queer relationships for people like my dad, who pretty much lived in a heteronormative world with his exclusively straight friends, their social lives revolving around their football team.