This wasn’t my only experience with public failure, obviously. I had dramatic losses in my bodybuilding career, I had movies that went in the toilet, and this wasn’t the first time I’d watched my approval ratings fall like the Dow Jones Industrial Average. But I wasn’t even close to rock bottom. And it wasn’t the recession that brought my world crashing down. I did that to myself. I blew up my family. No failure has ever felt worse than that.
