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Ken: We need to talk… don’t do this.
🙄
Rounding the corner, I saw Kennedy in the hall. Her arms were folded, and she was talking to her soon to be husband in his office. When she saw me, she couldn’t hide how her face lit up.
damn she’s like a ghost that just won’t go away
Either way, it was a shit ton of them, and I was becoming overstimulated with all this damn barking. However, I was on a mission, and I was looking for one particular dog. “Navy always wanted a dog, and there’s a particular dog that she wanted.”
he’s getting her a puppy 🥹
“Goon? I got a meeting with him sometime in the next few weeks.” “Me and Gerald are friends,” her delusional ass convinced herself, because she wasn’t convincing me that she and Goon were friends.
girl please you’ve been singing that same tune since last time, that’s your future husband baby
“Probably. Gerald is a good man, so I know he would be a good boyfriend or husband. I’ve been big dawg for so long that I’m ready to retire. Have a man lead me… let me be soft. Never experienced that before.” I could see she was tired, and this was something she desired so much. She wanted a man that would lead without her ever having to say a word. Goon was that nigga, and she just needed to let him in.
“You a Caselli before yo’ mama,” I laughed, looking at the paperwork that the shelter had given me when I signed my life on the line for her.
😭😭😭
Recommendation: Listen to “Wifey” by Next
As much as I wanted to be in his arms, I was invited by a makeup brand to a quick staycation outside of the city, and then I had campaigns that were due, so I had to lock in. Being in love was cool, but I refused to allow that to knock me off my square. I had a plan to retire my family.
make that money honey! we love a boss lady!
“Will you be my wifey?” he sang out the words, but it felt different from the lyrics. It was like he was asking me without asking. Nah. I was tripping.
oh baby he meant that shit
I didn’t want to shack up with a man because he was my boyfriend. My mother didn’t move in with my father until they were engaged and then married a few months later. I refused to do wifely duties for a boyfriend, even if he was a billionaire.
I slid from his lap onto the floor and covered my ears. “No, you didn’t just say that… no, no, no,” I said, while rocking because those words didn’t just leave his mouth. I was imagining it, and we were talking about him being a pimp, not the fact that he bought a whole basketball team and made me co-owner of it.
navy your boyfriend is whole billionaire like please!
“You wanna know why?” “Yes.” “You said you wanted to retire your family, that is your dream, Bleu. Your family is important to you and that was one of the first things I learned about you. You would never take the money or allow me to do it myself, so this is a way for you to do that. Retire your family… take care of them.”
😢😢😢😢😢😢
No more of them having to worry about their work commutes, money being tight, or the rent increasing. They would be able to live and know that they were taken care of. It was a dream I always had, and as I sat in his lap, and looked at him with tears coming down my eyes, I could tell he wanted that dream for me.
Recommendation: “Juicy” by Pretty Ricky
ooo jahquel got the good tunes in this book!
He wasn’t going to break me; I wanted him to break.
she’s an eaterrrr
Like a glutton for punishment, I wanted more of whatever he was giving me. If I had to be out there selling candy bars for the basketball team for more, I would get out there with a carboard sign and a box of candy. Whatever Landon Caselli had for my body, I wanted.
We carried everyone’s plate out to them, and I nearly dropped my plate when I saw Kennedy sitting at the dining table. Where the fuck did, she come from, and who invited her?
okay i’ve had it up to here with kennedy
I looked behind Stevie, and Menace stood in the doorway. “Italy, you have guest and you back here talking.”
the hell he got italy from navy 😂😂
“A dreammmm, a simple fantasyyyy!” Stevie belted out, and we all stared at her. “What? I sing when I’m nervous.”
i miss my girl stevie
Landon came around the corner, sitting Kennedy’s plate down roughly. “Enjoy, Wench.”
WENCHKSHDSJSJS
Menace and Stevie came back into the dining room, she fixed her dress, and he had a pep in his step. “We eating or just looking at each other?”
oh we know what they were doing 😂 he probably sniffed her stuff to relax!
Kennedy looked at her plate and started picking around the food. “Why don’t you wanna fuck me anymore, Uncle Landon?”
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU)$?)
“You didn’t know… this is my uncle, and he wanted us to be together.” My father looked at Menace, who cut into his chicken. “This is my sister, and I made her my wife,” he nodded at Stevie, and she shoved him. “Maverick!” she harshly whispered. My father pushed his seat out. “Ro, baby, I think we have to head out and attend that thing.”
yall tryna scare navy’s parents omg
All day I felt weird but didn’t pay any mind to how I felt. In my mind, it didn’t matter how I felt because this baby was going to be aborted. Now, I was bleeding and worried about what was going on with me.
oh my god she’s having a miscarriage
Recommendation: Listen to “Never” by Boyz II Men
yeah this song describes her to a T
Honestly, I wasn’t even paying her any attention, I was focused on Landon. How he was so attentive with her, paying her attention and showing her love in front of his family. It was no doubt that there was love shared between the two of them.
I guess he had always been done with me. I’ve made every excuse as to why we couldn’t be together, when he was willing to risk his relationship with his brother to be with me. Make me happy.
and you took advantage of that
“This is actually your fucking fault… forbidding us to be together. We could have been happy; I wouldn’t have to marry Alex.”
and honestly we will never know but i don’t even think it would’ve worked out between then
“You’re fucking damaged… never fucking healed after what happened to you. Ken, you been to that therapist yet?” “No, I don’t nee—” “Then stay the fuck away from my brother. Nigga has his own fucking set of shit he needs to work on, and he doesn’t need to be going back and forth with someone who hasn’t put herself first to heal… don’t want that for my boy. He deserves to be happy, not trying to fucking fix you, which he has done in the past, right?”
and now we see why he tried so hard to refrain don from entertaining kennedy. two broken souls can’t heal each other
“You don’t know me and you will never know me, but I’ve never been bothered by what you do. The rule, at first, was to avoid you ending up hurt. I know my brother, and commitment wasn’t his thing… broken hearts and fucked pussies is what he left in his trail of destruction. I didn’t want that for you. The more I watched; I realized that you’re fucking broken and it may be you leaving him with a broken heart and a wet dick.”
“Who is going to take care of me? I have to look out for me, and marrying Alex makes sure that I am taken care of.”
it’s about security for her
“You are not my fucking family… y’all keep stressing that and it’s not fucking true. I don’t want the pity money, or to be looked at as the whore that you took in, licked her wounds, and saved her.”
she can’t accept the love they’re trying to show her
He stood up. “We’re not family, heard you… I don’t wish nobody well, so ain’t about to start. You know how to keep your mouth shut. If something gets back to me that you been running that mouth,” he grabbed my jaw gently, “I’m gonna pull it from your fucking face and leave you with your father.”
He stared down at me, his jaw tight. “She knows the rules. Knows when to shut that mouth. She made it real clear… we’re not family. Don’t expect me to treat her like we are. She doesn’t get the same respect, the same protection… not anymore.”
damn she severed those ties
“You heard him… we’re not family. Don’t need to explain myself to either of you. You welcomed her with open arms, but you turned your nose down at me.”
that’s what you believe but never once did they turn their nose down at you
I sat there, listening to her heels on the wooden floor, while Zoya remained seated. “He’s in love. Let him have this happiness, Ken.” Me and Zoya had always been close, and I loved her because she was so honest. Always down to give you the real, even if you didn’t want to hear it. “I deserve happiness, too,” my voice cracked.
and you do baby just not with him.
Menace is a lot of things, but he wasn’t wrong. You would destroy Landon. He would destroy himself trying to fix you, and that isn’t what love is about. It should be easy, feel good, not be a struggle.” Tears fell as I looked up at her. “I do love him, Zoy.”
you only love them when it’s too late
“Money isn’t everything, Ken.” She felt the need to remind me. “I have money, and it doesn’t make you happier. It only shows just how unhappy you are.”
She miscarried the baby.
OH NOOOO
When the doctor told us what I already figured, she had a sigh of relief. I think we both did because it could have been something else.
well i’m glad she’s filled with relief. i just wished it would’ve been on her terms
I told her everything from how we first met, to the way she blew up on me in Italy. How I constantly showed up for her, even knowing that she constantly pushed me away. How I was willing to go against my family for her.
I wasn’t in love with Kennedy. I wanted to fall in love with her, give her everything she never had. Every time, she pushed back from me. I continued to prove to her that I could be that man for her, and she never trusted it. She didn’t have the confidence and faith in me like she had these clients. Despite knowing what rested within my bank accounts, she never trusted that I could love her and heal her.
see that was kennedy’s problem. she wanted someone to save her when she can’t even save herself. i hope she thinks about going to therapy.
She kissed my lips. “Thank you.” “For what?” “Being you.” “Thank you.” “For?” “Loving me and sharing your family with me. For seeing beyond the facade and loving me anyway. Fucking me right… letting me beat that pussy.”
😂😭😭
“Aye, how you doing?” She shrugged. “Maintaining.” “Give me a hug, Baby Cakes.” She put her arms around his neck, and he hugged her tightly. “Want us to leave so you both can fuck?” Menace blurted.
oh my god 😂😂😂😂
“Don already told me that I gotta stay with you.” He was double parked across the street and switched to the next page of his S.A. Cosby book.
We had no reason to sit and talk. Antwan needed to move on and live his own life that didn’t include me. He made his bed, and now he needed to lay in it. “Me and Mila broke up.”
we don’t care
“We can be friends. I know, I know, it sounds very childish.” Stevie turned around and smiled at me. “Hi, I’m Stevie Caselli… I’m a first time mom, gallery owner, and I’m an artist.” Laughing, I shook her hand. “I’m Navy Bleu Perkins. I’m a dog mom, book lover, and a content creator.”
ugh they’re so gonna be sister soulmates
Recommendation: Listen to “So High” (Single Version) by John Legend
omg omg omg
“Navy Bleu, when I met you, I never knew how much of an impact that you would have on my life. Wasn’t really looking for love, and then I met you reading in the middle of a dinner party.” “The book was more interesting,” I playfully shrugged.
HIM PROPOSING IN A LIBRARY?!?! oh my god
He printed the pictures we took and sat them on the table. When I looked up, I squealed and fell to my knees. My parents, grandparents, aunt, uncles, and Greene were standing there. “No, you… no,” I sobbed, as he helped me back to my feet and laughed, while hugging me.
oh sweetie 🤧🤧🤧
