I wasn’t used to being chosen when it came to men. Unless there was a transaction and I had become used to that. Feelings caused people to lose everything, and I didn’t need that in my life. Choosing and loving Landon could cause me to lose everything.
this is such a heartbreaking mentality but when it’s everything she’s known to doing and understanding that having that security in money because it won’t hurt her, she’s bound to feel this way. she won’t ever be happy in the afterlife though.
