what they don’t tell you about a toxic man is that while he is toxic, he is also many other things. some days he is doting and remembers how I take my coffee. some days he is cheerful and laughs with me while we watch our favorite shows. it is unsettling. to look into eyes and a soul that contain such hostility and selfishness while also containing unpredictable light. it makes you question him and who he truly is. it makes you question your own sanity. it makes you question everything you know. it makes you question yourself.
