Eggshells

by Parm K.C.

The woman in this story is an amalgamation of many women. These words are for her – the one who has been with someone that made her feel cracked and small. If you’ve experienced a toxic relationship, the first two chapters of this book will give you validation. The second two chapters will give you hope. Please know that you possess the courage to walk away, put your pieces back together, and thrive.

it didn’t start with toxicity. it didn’t start with heartbreak. it didn’t start with pain.

he turned a vibrant woman dull, and now he says he needs more color in his life.

he is so charming in front of others, and so harmful behind closed doors.

why does the world get the best of him, while I get the worst?

I’m told I messed up. I’m told I did it wrong. I’m told I can’t do anything right.

and I just want to feel like I deserve love.

it seems he only wants me when he wants my body.

I colored his red flags green, but I’m almost out of paint. his true colors are starting to show.

I don’t know how he can fall asleep and sleep so peacefully when I am sobbing next to him.

we were the perfect storm. we were oil and water, irresistibly drawn to each other, but destined to crash and burn.

if you asked me about him, I would tell you that he hurt me. if you asked me on a deeper level, I would tell you that he left me in fragments of what I once was. that he took my faith in love and shattered it.

I am a ghost of myself. where I used to be full of passion, I am now exhausted and depleted.

I know I should be the bigger person and I should take the high road. but fuck that. may someone hurt him the way he hurt me.

may he love another with every bone in his body and may they make him feel like he is not enough.