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She giggles. “My god, you can’t even say it. I’m in a loveless marriage.” My jaw twitches. Is she? Am I loveless? I can do this. It’s just a word. “I’d like to make love to my wife,” I say. And to my own surprise, the words don’t make me sick.
“There isn’t a single soul more special than yours, temptress.”
“I’ve never had sex where the woman hasn’t been restrained. I’ve never had them facing me, looking into my soul. I’ve never trusted anyone to give even the smallest piece of me to them. There is no other word for my past encounters than simply “a fuck”. But you’re different. I want to change that, for you.”
“Mark me, psycho. Put your name on my ass and fuck me there.”
“Love, I think there is a point at which a person becomes too broken to fix.”
“I know, baby. I know. But by holding onto it, letting it live in your brain, you’re letting that memory win. You’re giving it power that it doesn’t deserve from you.“
“Sometimes you have to make light out of your trauma. I’m still standing. You choked me in your sleep, that's all. You have my consent to do whatever you want to me any time of the day, awake or not.” He chokes on a cough. “Don’t give me that kind of power over you.”
Death doesn’t scare me. But loving Stephanie does. That petrifies me.
“Say it with me, love. Til’. Death. Do. Us. Part.”
“I’m clearly fucking crazy for falling for a psycho like you.” I let the words drip with a sweet smile. He grunts. “Ditto.”
“Love, when you’ve lived the life that I have, you learn never to trust what someone says. Even if that person owns your fuckin’ heart. There is only one way for me to fully believe you. To know you’re completely in. I believe you. I do. But what I feel for you could cloud my judgment. I can’t risk that, not when it comes to our enemies and protecting my blood.”
“If I’d have known how hard I’d fall for you, I’d have told you the truth at the start. I fucked up, but I really didn’t mean to hurt you.”
“It’s funny. People keep saying I’m hurt. Like I’m not already dead inside.”
“Hey, Nyx. You’re kinda heavy around my neck there, girl.” Stephanie’s voice is soft, almost teasing. Nyx’s head tilts, and she rubs her face against Stephanie’s cheek, and fuck, my heart explodes. She doesn’t tighten. She doesn’t coil. She just rests there, peaceful and still. She’s made her judgment. And so have I.
“I always saw your darkness. That’s what drew me in. Now, it just makes sense. We’re not too dissimilar, Dr. Quinn.”
“It’s always going to be you for me, Finn,” I whisper against his lips.
“Good. Because I’ll need outfits for London.” His expression shuts down. “No.” His voice is firm. “No? You’re telling your wife no?” I snap my legs closed, but he growls and yanks them back apart with a sharp tut.
“You have work.” “You’re my boss. I’d like to request vacation for a few days,” I counter.
I pull back my fist, and it lands square on his jaw. He doesn’t move. Doesn’t even blink. Fuck. “Finn.” My voice is cautious. “Again. Harder,” he barks. I grit my teeth and swing again, with a lot more power this time. His head goes back with the impact, and he rubs his cheek as he looks dead at me. And my fucking psycho husband smiles. He smirks. “Atta girl.”
She’s not just my wife. Not just my temptress. She’s my equal.
I’m not just his wife. I’m his partner. At work, at home, and in every shadow his world demands.
“All you have to do is agree to take me, Finn. Say the words, and I’ll sit on your face and let you taste what’s yours.” “This is cruel, baby.” His breath is hot against my thigh. “I know. But you love me this way.”
“Stephanie. Pull those panties to the side and sit the fuck down,” he growls.
“You can, and you are. Because you’re my good girl,” he praises.
“You’re mine,” I whisper against her hair. “And I’ll never let you go. Even if I ruin you.” Her answer is a whimper, but her body melts back into mine. “I’m yours to ruin, Finn. Do your worst,” she pants.
“You’re perfect exactly how you are,” he says. “Don’t you dare say anything otherwise.” I chew my lip. He’s deadly serious, though, his eyes burning through me. Almost as if he’s angry I’d think otherwise.
“Baby, I need something to grab hold of to fuck you thoroughly. These are staying. Your ass is staying. I want you exactly how you are.”
“So you do jerk off to other women?” I ask. His expression hardens like stone. “No. I don’t even touch myself. I have no need. And now, the only time I will is if I’ve got a front-row seat of your ass so I can paint my cum all over your cheeks.”
“Oh yeah? You still want to be Daddy Finn, huh?” His mouth finds my ear. “I’ve already started tracking your cycle, temptress. It’s not an if, it’s a when.”
“Family is everything to me, temptress. I’d die for them. I’d die for you. And for our children? I’d rip my own heart out for them. You’ll never have to worry. Here, we stick together. Always.”
“And now you’re part of the family too. You might’ve been alone for a long time, but not anymore. We’ve got you. I promise.” He leans closer. “Till death do us part, right?”
I fall asleep to the sound of his heart.
I tilt her chin up, drinking her in. “Absolutely beautiful, temptress. Gorgeous. Stunning. A masterpiece. Perfection.” My lips hover over hers. “All fuckin’ mine.”
“I’ll look good as an accessory on your arm, Dr. Quinn.” “No. You’re the main event.”
“Perhaps we will have time to get a dance in,” he says. My heart races. “I thought Dr. Quinn doesn’t do dancing?” I tease. “I don’t. But, for you, I will. If it makes you smile.”
My husband isn’t just a man. He’s a deadly weapon.
“Excuse me, darlin’, we need to get past,” I say. “Oh, sorry.” She steps back, flustered, and moves to the side and keeps walking. Stephanie’s hand slips from mine, and I immediately turn to face her. Her nostrils are flaring, her eyes are daggers as she crosses her arms over her chest. “What?” I ask, raising an eyebrow. She steps closer and pushes against my chest so my back is against the wall. “Call another woman darlin’ again, and neither of you will be walking out of here alive,” she says with a straight face. It makes my cock twitch, her being possessive like this. “I hear you. No
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“I wouldn’t threaten me with death again though, love,” I whisper in her ear, and she shivers against my touch. “Why is that, Dr. Quinn?” she whispers back. “Because that makes me hard as fuck,” I tell her, feeling her skin heat.
Because she doesn’t understand. I’m obsessed. Addicted. Every sound, every look, every part of her is mine, and mine alone. “Because your moans belong to me,” I mutter, stealing a kiss.
I can’t fight it anymore. I open my mouth to speak, but she beats me to it. “I love you,” she breathes out. She truly is a fuckin’ menace. “That’s great, love.” I keep my tone neutral. She frowns, licking her lip. “That’s all you have to say? Seriously?” I can’t help but grin. “You’re the one who stole my line, temptress. Now, are you gonna let me say my whole declaration properly?”
“Stephanie Quinn. I love you,” I tell her quietly so only she can hear.
“I love you, temptress. More than I can stand. More than I ever thought I was capable of. I thought love was a weakness. I thought it would destroy me. But you—” My voice fractures, my throat burning as I press my forehead to hers. “You’re the only thing that’s ever made me want to fucking live.”
I can’t breathe. My chest aches like it’s collapsing in on itself, but her arms come around my neck, holding me together, and it’s the first time in my entire fucked-up existence that I believe I’m not beyond saving. “So, forever? Does that sound okay? In this life and the next,” I whisper.
My temptress. My wife. My salvation.
And when I kiss her, it isn’t the kiss of a man who’s claiming. It’s the kiss of a man who’s surrendering. I might as well be on my fucking knees. Because I’ve finally fucking found the one thing stronger than the darkness inside me. Her.
I’m not leaving this life without telling my wife that I fucking love her again. Without kissing her one more time.
I need him. He’s all I want in this life.
“You fuckin’ cunt!” Declan smashes his fist into Arthur’s nose. I clearly tried to tame the wrong brother here.
And when I kiss her, it isn’t desperate. It isn’t frantic. It’s a vow. One I’ll burn the entire world to keep.
“I need you to remember how much I love you. Because once I open that door, it might not seem like love. But it is. It’s my way of showing you.”
