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“Having a good night?” Rozanov asked cheerfully. His hazel eyes sparkled the way they always did when he was talking shit.
No and i love him
Rozanov stopped talking, but he managed to find an even more effective way of getting under Hollander’s skin: he winked.
My king
“Aw,” Rozanov said, the obnoxious little grin returning to his face. “He missed you.” Shane snorted. “He did,” Rozanov insisted. “Give him a kiss.”
My dads
Rozanov blew him a kiss on his way out the door,
I LOVE HIM
Shane fought to keep his voice even. “I might open the door.” Rozanov smiled. “I might knock.”
Yeah lit
Rozanov chuckled against Shane’s neck. “I’m a nice guy.”
Never did
“You know what makes you gayer?”
Crying
“What color?” “Fuck you!” “Is it big?” “I’m leaving.”
ILYA ROZANOV I WOULD LAY DOWN MY LIFE FOR YOU
“I hate you.” “Yes. I know. Show me.”
Jesus
Rozanov looked at him and shook his head. “Not here,” he said tightly.
Sobs
“Suck my dick, Rozanov.” Be the best blow job of your life, sweetheart. Ilya winked at him.
He is like a child to me
“Faggot,” the other player grumbled. Ilya shrugged. It was half true. Maybe, like, thirty percent true.
Bye
got, um, ginger ale. You like that shit, right?” “Yeah. I do.”
EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED
He seemed to really want Shane to drink the ginger ale. As Shane took one from the fridge, he wondered if it might be poisoned.
The way he is trying to seduce shane with food to stay GOD I LOVE HIM
So maybe they had picked up things about each other over the years, without really trying.
KILL ME
“I find it hard, being so...high profile, you know?
Hey this is in the trailer
Shane. He called me Shane.
Sigh
He pulled back so he could see Rozanov’s face, and was shocked to see him staring at him with the same wide-eyed terror that Shane felt. “Ilya,” he said, barely more than a whisper.
Im going to do something drastic
Shane would probably show the text to his movie star girlfriend, and they would laugh at how pathetic Ilya was. No. That wouldn’t happen. Of course Shane wouldn’t do that. Maybe.
Crying he is so insecure
“Okay, you’re out of the race. Out of the pool. Out of Florida. Goodbye. Where’s your dad?”
I fucking love him
Ilya shrugged and looked away. He knew it was the wrong reaction, but he felt a horrifying swell of emotion that he couldn’t let Shane see.
Im going to cut
“Would you want to be? If we could?” “We can’t.”
Im sick
“I love my country,” Ilya said. “But I could not stay there.”
Im ill
“Stay,” Ilya said. “Can’t.” But he loved that Ilya was asking.
BLEGHHHHH
“and on top of everything, I’m pretty sure I’m in love with you and I don’t know what to do about it.”
Sigh
think you know exactly what I’d do, after all these years.”
Cries
“You. He wasn’t you.”
Goddd
“I’m fucked,” he murmured in Russian. “I am so fucking in love and it’s horrible.”
Im ill...ill i tell you
I can’t, Ilya wanted to say. I can’t because if I do you’ll think I’m pathetic, or, worse, you’ll say it back and then what the fuck are we supposed to do?
Sigh
Somehow, Ilya made him happy. Ilya wanted to always make him happy.
FUCK
“There was a club having a Scott Hunter night, whatever the fuck that means.”
Omg
“Oh, so in this romantic scenario, you’ve just defeated me?” “Yes. Sorry.”
My friends
“I’m not going to be in the mood to kiss you if I’ve just lost the Stanley Cup, Rozanov.” “But you would be so proud of me!”
“Years,” Ilya sighed. “Years I have wanted to have you in your real bed.” Shane froze. “Years?”
Kill me
“All of this. For two weeks. Is mine.” Forever, Shane wanted to say. Forever if you ask.
BLWGHHHH
“Ilya. I’m gay.” “Not too gay to fuck Rose Landry.”
King
“No,” Ilya said seriously, looking Shane dead in the eye. “I do not want the problem to ever go away.”
Im crying wowwwwww im crying
“You want that? To be together?” “I do. So much it terrifies me.”
BLEGHHHH
“Does it...does it feel like agony for you too?” Ilya started to nod, then stopped. He shook his head slowly instead. “Not anymore.”
Matter of fact kill me
“Lovers,” Ilya offered. Fuck, way to choose the grossest possible word, Ilya.
Bye
“I have been with lots of women. That was not...fake. But...” He looked at Shane, and Shane held his breath. “I have only been in love with one person.”
BLEGHHHHHHHH
Shane raised his head slightly. “Boyfriend?” Such a ridiculous word. Such a ridiculous, wonderful word. Ilya shrugged and grinned. “I think, yes?”
Fuck
but Ilya felt that, if he hadn’t quite been already, he would be welcomed into Shane’s family, and that was no small thing. In fact, to Ilya, who had barely been welcome in his own family, it was huge.
FUCK
He’d left Russia, he was uneasy in America, and he’d spent his entire adult life drifting between continents and between lovers.
Kill me
“Because it is a beautiful day. And we are alone. And I met your parents. And I want you to calm the fuck down. And I love you.”
Ilya rozanov you poet
I love you so much. Don’t leave me.
FUCK
“And you will say yes, because you are a nice, helpful guy.”
He is hilarious
“We could talk about how Hayden is eating around the mushrooms like a five-year-old,” Ilya offered. Hayden put his spoon down with a loud clank. “We could talk about what the fuck Shane sees in you.”
dead
I’ve got no problem with you being gay—” “What a hero,” Ilya said flatly.
Love him
Ilya raised an eyebrow. “You should save some of that for our wedding.”
Fucking king
