The Long Game (Game Changers, #6)

by Rachel Reid

He closed his eyes and focused on how good it felt to be with Shane, alone in the dark, and tried not to wish it could be the same in the light.

“We are very good at pretending to not be in love. Maybe we are bad at showing it when we are allowed.”

“When you watch it, this is what you will see. Me saying nothing. I wanted to say you are fucking everything to me. Everything. Okay?”

Quietly, in a voice that couldn’t disguise his pain, he said, “I already chose you, Hollander.”

He wished Shane could respond. He hated thinking about Shane seeing these messages...after. He’d keep them forever. Ilya knew he would. Fuck. He had to say something really good. I am thinking only about you right now. A million memories. Thank you for those. Whatever happens, I am with you. Safe in your heart. I believe it. He did. Ilya only had vague ideas of the afterlife and any gods who may be waiting there, but he believed his soul would stay with Shane, however it could. He believed the people you loved stayed with you until it was your time to go. He often felt his mother with him, and he knew he’d do the same for Shane. And maybe he’d see his mother again soon. That